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Open Post

Dec. 30th, 2020 03:04 pm
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Woot! My first ever Open Post. Please feel free to comment on anything and everything. Thank you for not using profanity.
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For Shame

Dec. 22nd, 2020 12:28 am
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The Professional Managerial Class is desperately trying to keep their Panicdemic and all of its accompanying shutdowns alive. Recently, the mainstream media announced a new 70% more deadly strain of Coronavirus was on the prowl, prompting a new round of closures and cancellations that will shove more tiers of the former middle class into destitution.  And for what?  Covid kills .03 percent or less for those under the age of 60, so increasing the amount of deaths to a whopping half a percent via a "70% more deadly" strain doesn't exactly make it formidable.

The New Useless Eaters

To protect a sliver of the elderly via dubious methods of solitary confinement in nursing homes and hospitals (a.k.a. forcing them to die alone because the State has clandestinely labelled them as Useless Eaters), the government has collapsed the world economy, driving millions into poverty and causing third world starvation. Back in the first world, suicide and domestic abuse statistics are skyrocketing, crime in the cities is ballooning, businesses like mine are folding, and unemployment is off the charts. The only people who are still doing well are the Professional Managerial Class and their one percent rulers, smugly virtue signaling from on high. They are, for now, still making plenty of money, happily sitting at home as their children muddle through online lessons at school, some more proficiently than others. Jeff Bezos is nearly a trillionaire. In Wuhan, the economy has never been better and they’re partying mask-free like it’s 1999. Nothing to see here, folks, keep moving.

Psychotic Break

Despite a fortune seemingly cemented in place that heavily indicates a few more years of a communist Chinese feeding frenzy disguised as monarchy, the Professional Managerial Class is in the midst of a psychotic break. They are the spoiled children that got everything they wanted for Christmas and then found that none of those toys filled the gaping pit of emptiness inside. They were mentally ill to begin with (I’m not supposed to use that terminology according to the Social Justice movement, because I could hurt the feelings of schizophrenics) and that mental illness is worsening by the hour. The preferred leftist outcome of the 2020 American presidential election was supposed to heal all wounds — Facebook and Twitter still ring with calls for unity while spewing vitriol at anyone who disagrees with shutdowns and masks or is of the wrong skin color — but it is clear to see the wounds are still there, itching and seeping under a thin bandage. The PMC acts no saner than it did in 2016 when the Orange Man played salvage shop and began to drain the swamp. Now, with Orange Man apparently vanquished, the Left is doing what it does best: eating its own. The mainstream media does what it can to stick fingers in the dam of evidence against its drooling, senile, child molesting President Elect, but there’s only so much you can do on a slow news day. The facts on the ground are that the President Elect is easy to loathe, and since the mainstream media has pushed nothing but loathing for the last five years, old patterns die hard. Trump was the goose that laid the Cheeto-colored eggs and he’s no longer laying. Of course all eyes now turn from him to the pathetic travesty about to take the Iron Throne.

Enter Shame

The Professional Managerial Class and its defender aspirants marinated in pure hatred for the last five years and they now hilariously want to skip away to a unicorn fart world of love, light, and non-TERF BIPOC feminism where we can pretend it never happened. If we only accept the Great Reset, coerced inoculations for an impotent nothingburger flu, we can all be happy and the Progressive flying car utopia will arrive on schedule. The PMC have yet to realize you cannot eat, live, and breathe hatred and then turn tail when the consequences of being hateful are plopped on your doorstep. That’s why they’re so triggered when I say the word “shame.”

The PMC have a problem with shame, whether they choose to acknowledge it or not. I know this because I was born and raised as a PMC. I know how they operate underneath the hood.

How Freaking Double Dog Dare You!

The Greta Thunberg phenomenon is meant to shame us all into accepting the young scold's warped vision of green utopia.  Thunberg, in her ocean-sailing, vegan convenience food eating, autistic naïveté said "How Dare You!" without the faintest understanding of her own hypocrisy.  The trouble with shame is that it cannot be effectively dealt by those who do not live as they preach.  Nearly starving yourself to death at age ten because you are a spoiled brat is not the same thing as the ten year old who picks up trash in the forest preserve because he wants to inspire others to conserve its beauty and majesty.  If the trash collector kid talks about conservation, I'm willing to listen.  If a rich kid who accepted a "free" Tesla who played hooky from school and made her mother quit a once-in-several-lifetimes career of professional opera singing because of whatever piss was infecting her cornflakes that week, I am not inclined to lend such a person my ears.

The Burden and Karma of Responsibility

On one of JMG’s blogs, I had a Covid fearmonger trying to go around with me because I danced around the idea of the s word that rhymes with blame. Her fixation was on the idea of responsibility, how I had better not consider her responsible if I infected grandma with COVID by not self-isolating and wearing a mask until my own natural death. She (or he) displayed a transparent yearning for me to feel shame for being wrongity-wrong, which I would of course feel when my loved ones caught COVID and died horrible failed double lung transplant related deaths. I found this interesting because of the shadow being projected.

The thing is, the PMC and all of the fearmongers who still encourage lockdowns and masks are directly responsible for the consequences of the lockdowns. The reason I have not played nicely with lockdowns and masks from the beginning is because I do not want the karma of those who have blindly followed orders all this time. My ill-wisher is already responsible for the death of 11 year old Adan Llanos, who shot himself during a virtual school session. She is responsible for the terror of my elderly neighbor, a kind old man who died surrounded by strangers in a hospital bed a few weeks ago instead of his wife and grown children. She is responsible for the droves of addicts who fell back into addiction, given nothing but idle time and no support groups. She is responsible for the small towns that lost their only profitable company because of lack of demand and all of the families thrown into poverty as a result.  She is responsible for a billion missed rites of passage: weddings, proms, funerals, mitzvahs, quinceaneras, graduations, first kisses.  She is responsible for her own cowardly escapism into the Petit Trianon of Netflix and takeout food while others literally starved.  I believe she will pay for it someday, though it won’t be up to deplorable like me to punish her.  Justice for her is up to the gods and I am not privy to viewing their schedules in advance.

Meanwhile, she is a septic tank of PMC mindlessness, a condition I wouldn’t wish on anyone because I used to live there and it sucks. She can only pretend to feel sorry for the disenfranchised because THAT IS HOW SHE IS SUPPOSED TO FEEL. If she were just to admit she doesn’t care because it doesn’t affect her personally (not my circus, not my monkeys) it would make her into a monster. This is why she and her ilk are so quick to accuse anyone suffering from the lockdowns as a grandma-killer: projecting the monstrous shadow. If she were to admit she disliked the idea of my elderly neighbor dying alone and abandoned but also admitted she wasn’t willing to lift a finger to help if it meant sacrificing her own privileges, it would make her guilty. Her guilt might cause her to feel shame.

I know how the PMC mind races at night. I know how full it is of media tidbits, popular jargon, and peccadilloes. In the current climate of fear porn, soon to be declassé Trump Derangement Syndrome, and cognitive dissonance, it’s a thousand times worse than when I called myself a PMC. The PMC are getting plenty of rest these days but they still can’t sleep. When your imagination has been polluted and you are in complete and denial about the ways in which it is polluted, that pollution still must discharge in various ways. Trump was the outlet/target for the steady stream of PMC foulness in the US. Now the sewer has backed up, hence psychotic break, descent into depression, alcoholism, drugs, TikTok, online gaming and Netflix binges.

You Watching Me Watching Me

The PMC woman was, like me, trained to be vain and to simultaneously deny that vanity as a sin. She is always picturing herself from an outsider’s view. We women are cultivated to view ourselves remotely from birth so that we can better compete with other women. The urge to compete is the urge to consume. Grasping why Madison Avenue would want us this way should be obvious. 

Postmodern Original Sin

Rich women are saddled with this self-viewing compulsion in the extreme. Being born rich means you will constantly percolate set ideas in your pretty head: that you don’t actually have the right to exist, that you are ugly, that you’re a parasite, a hustler, and a grifter because of the privileges you enjoy.  The Korean film about class warfare, Parasite, comes to mind: we are never explicitly told if the real parasites are the rich or the poor. 

The more privileges you enjoy, the more shame and guilt you must feel.  In order to consume more product to ostensibly better yourself, you are made to feel guilty and worthless, especially while young. Women have different reactions to being conditioned this way; most don’t think about it for one second and would blink at you stupidly if you pointed it out. For some, there is extreme dieting and dysmorphia, starving oneself to become perfect, beautiful, and therefore worthy of your status. For others, angrily inventing a list of oppressions to become a professional victim assuages the feeling of guilt. Some become party girls, attempting to have fun while becoming human tragedies of addiction and codependence. Rarely do they strike at the root, which is of course the way they were conditioned to (not) think.

There are workarounds, of course, but the fearmongering PMC is not willing to look at them at this point. One would be taking a hard look at the toxicity of an exceedingly comfortable life. Another would be admitting that the economic prognosis of living standards for one’s grandchildren is going to be bleak, especially if said grandchildren are under the age of ten.  To truly deal with their shame hangups, the PMC would first have to admit that shame is playing a role and second stop projecting the shadow upon others in the form of blame and finger pointing.  Mostly I see the PMC clinging onto the privilege raft down the DeNile River until it finally throws them off.  They will only be dragged from Versailles kicking and screaming. 
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This morning, I found myself sharing the sob story of my business with the pharmacist who compounds my cat's anti-constipation medicine. Since mid-2020, little Kiki (LOL she's actually huge, around 20 pounds) has needed artificial assistance in the form of an oral medication called Cisapride in order to poop. I suspect that Cisapride is secretly manufactured by artisan elf-monks in the high Sierras out of solid gold that tarnishes when touched by air, because it costs $60 for a 30mg bottle.

I just happened to get the head pharmacist on the phone, and he was exceptionally kind when I told him that I was a small business owner down on her luck because of the Covidapocalypse and $40 was the difference between me and two week's worth of groceries. Though he gave me a discount on Kiki's medication, I don't want a discount.

I want to be able to afford my cat's medication.

Last year at this time, I was doing great. I had money coming in from my usual side work -- recording vocals, PDF sheet music. Plus my music lesson studio had a line out the door. I'm extremely good at what I do. There isn't a singer who walks into my door who isn't a better singer in 6 months time. I also teach piano and guitar, and I know I'm exceptionally good at teaching those as well: as adults, my grown-up ex-students don't stop playing their instruments long after lessons with me are over.

Enough about me and my business. I'm one of the lucky small business owners. I still have a business to come back to. If I owned a dance studio, a gift shop, or a restaurant, forget it. Tracy Walker is (was?) a hairstylist in Alberta, Canada who did everything right. She's on the verge of losing her house, which will displace her, her husband, and her diabetic brother who depends on her for care.  

Tracy managed to create a situation that I've always wanted but couldn't make happen: she runs her business out of the bottom floor of her house, which has been converted into a storefront. It seems the idiots running things in her neck of the woods are of the same breed as the ones in Illinois, because she is unable to do business under a second lockdown.  Here's the thing: even though Tracy has made the decision to stay open against the lockdown order, much like I have done, there's not much one can do if only half the clients are willing to walk through the door.  Fear is powerful, and Tracy, like me and so many other small business owners, can't do much if people are too scared to be in the same room as each other.  There's also the not-small factor of economic collapse, which is cascading through the middle class right now and crushing people's abilities to afford luxuries such as meals out, karate lessons, cosmetic dentistry, hair cut & color, and exorbitantly-priced pet medications.  

I don't want government handouts.  There are people who should benefit from government handouts: all of those old, infirm, and chronically diseased people should be able to access the money they need.  Me?  I am of sound mind and able body and I want to work.  If I were to come into a great fortune tomorrow, I wouldn't close my Studio.  I would still go to work five days a week, though it would probably be via chauffeur as I hate driving.  

There is a silver lining to the cloud: Notice there were no lines outside Best Buy this year and nobody got killed in a Walmart stampede on Black Friday.  This will be the least commercialized Christmas we've had for a long time, and not because Big Retail wanted it that way, but because Big Government cut off its nose to spite its face in the form of self-induced financial collapse.  There is a lot of garbage that won't end up in ocean and future landfills because there won't be as many toys bought this year.  The desperation is palpable in Target and Dollar Tree -- I remember seeing Christmas decorations up in September because they all knew this would be a terrible year no matter how early they rolled out the BUYBUYBUY propaganda.  I hope we never have a successfully commercialized Christmas again.  I hope this year wipes out the frantic, Madison Avenue-driven urge to buy other people's love via material detritus in many individual souls.

I don't want money.  I want bravery.  I want people to stop following mask orders.  I went into Aldi yesterday and I didn't wear my mask.  When a shelf stocker said "Ma'am, put on your mask", I sweetly replied, "Oh my goodness, I must have forgotten.  Thank you so much for reminding me."  I put the mask on and as soon as I was around the corner, I took it off again.  I am going to stop wearing masks when I enter large chain stores, though for smaller places and local chains, I will comply with mask orders so they don't get in trouble.  How sad that it's up to a 4'11" inch woman to stand up to tyrants.  I guess it goes to show how few manly men there are in the suburbs -- I married one of the only ones who can wield a hammer, a paintbrush, and a saw competently.  I suppose I enjoyed myself a bit, gaslighting that poor Aldi employee in such a sarcastic manner.  I don't usually like confrontation and will do anything to avoid it, but this is war, make no mistake.

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As if on cue, the Right has become as deranged and demented as the demon-obsessed Left, proving that the opposite of one bad thing is another equally bad thing.

Um, yeah, I told you so. Remember when I said that Pedogate is the revival of the 1980s Satanic Panic? Remember when I said the Left needs to fear Pedogate because the Right can and will use it as a thrust block in order to strengthen a failing, feeble Christianity? Remember when I said the best strategy for Leftists would be to re-open everything (this was in summer), back down from the classist People of Walmart crap and mask shaming, and to offer up a few celebrity scapegoats for sacrifice? Remember the multiple times I have said the Left acts like it wants its heads to decorate tall fenceposts in the next decade at the very latest?

The Left clearly did not listen to me and carried on with its anti-Trump hategasm. I suppose they thought engineering a win for Joe Biden would usher in the New Jerusalem, hence the parties in the street post-election night that drew a hundred plus times the participants as any Biden rally before or since. Nope, nothing fishy there, kindly ignore the woman in blond braids pulling boxes of ballots from under a table in the wee hours of election night. Please sweep the statistical impossibilities and massive reams of sworn affidavits under the big gaslighted carpet. Take your inconvenient truths about Hunter Biden and his 14 year old niece who he clearly groomed for many years prior. Never you mind reports that Hunter did creepy, blackmail-prone things to extremely young Chinese girls because he is a pathetic, overgrown, poor little rich boy who quickly becomes bored with his toys. Please ignore Zhi Jing Ping’s hand up Joe Biden’s pants, animating his every move as doctors swarm round, injecting Sleepy Joe with whatever serums they think will keep Beijing’s favorite puppet from drooling or visibly soiling his drawers on live television.

The Left asked for this and here it is: signed, sealed, and delivered.

Of course the Left aren’t the only ones who can act as if demons control the reins of their psyches. The only thing that keeps some Rightists from actually crowning Donald Trump God-Emperor is the nagging reservation that the Christian god might find it offensive. Look at any video featuring Tom Hanks, John Legend, or Chrissy Teigen and you’ll find multiple comments accusing them of pedophilia. Go to any video on Bitchute and you’ll find not only multiple comments featuring the vilest anti-Semitism uttered since Hitler’s Germany, you’ll find entire channels devoted to denying the Holocaust. The astral septic tank is real and toxic Christianity is about to make it a whole lot worse.

All of the unigod Piscean religions suffer an Achilles heel of intolerance. Islam, Judaism, and Christianity are fatally flawed. Just as none of them have achieved the total world domination they desire for the last 2000 years, all three will see diminishing returns as the Industrial Age sputters to a halt. Religions that do a better job of abiding by the limits of the Earth and aren’t so concerned about the end of the world will survive catabolic collapse. Keep in mind that Marxist, Socialist, and Communist movements share the Piscean flaw of fixating on the End Times instead of making the best out of the here and now.

The death throes of Christianity in particular have lasted for the last two hundred years. It kicked off with the Great Disappointment. Meanwhile, in 1840s Europe, peasant farmers, including plenty in Ireland, starved en masse. The horrors of Stalinism and Maoism were the convulsions of a dying aeon, last grasps at human onethink, one lifestyle to rule them all. Fast forward to the clown world of 2020, when Alex Jones screams about the New World Order as Mike Flynn and MyPillow dude bark about Yahweh’s divine lips brushing their ears.

Toxic Femininity vs. Toxic Masculinity

The Left is toxic femininity personified. Toxic femininity, like radioactive water, engulfs and poisons. Toxic femininity is marked by an inability and unwillingness to discriminate, whether that means pretending two biological genders aren’t the only choices we are granted or that anything said in disagreement is hate speech. The toxic feminine hate themselves and spend great amounts of money trying to escape from dealing with their self-hatred and cognitive dissonance. Toxic femininity papers over its own acidic hatred with positive platitudes, for instance the “Now that Biden is elected, it’s time to unite” schtick.

Contrarily, the toxic masculine love themselves in the worst way. They are proud. They assume they are God’s chosen and will invent all manner of delusional psychotic interludes with the "divine" in order to prove themselves right. They have the same persecution complex that the toxic feminine side indulges in, and they have no problem with hatred, they just don’t hate themselves. Their failure to discriminate is as legendary as what the girls dish out: just look at how they can ball up every celebrity, politician, and left-leaning individual into a great big Satanic cabal. One of the nit-picky reasons the Left gets into such a froth over Trump is his Biff Tannen arrogance. I remember how enraged I used to become at age 13 when I would see the popular girls in school sneering at everyone. I imagined they had perfect lives because they wore Guess? and Benetton clothes and seemed confident. Meanwhile I knew I was smarter than they were and just waiting to come into my looks, yet what tortured me endlessly was that secret confidence that granted them social superiority. Trump inspires similar ire and his enemies are arguably less mature than I was at age 13.

If Biden gets his cheat-win, and it certainly looks like he will get it, it will seal the doom of the Democratic party. If Democrats had any foresight, they would have let Trump win and regrouped for 2024. Trump was their only shot at keeping the fires of media outrage stoked. Biden is situated to become the focus of blame like an ant under a magnifying glass on a hot, sunny sidewalk. Their entire party is going to follow in his endangered footsteps, despite the fact Biden resembles a neocon warhawk (or at least he did before he confused his wife for his sister on a regular basis) and they enjoy creating autonomous methhead Neverlands in former business districts.  Orange Man Bad will rule the country from the sidelines, a martyr who golfs. Just as I don’t think Trump thought he would win back in 2016, I don’t think he will mind his early retirement in 2020, and his loved ones will certainly sigh in relief despite never being able to go back to a pre-Presidential life.

Biden > Trump and Lockdowns > Covid: Two Instances of the Cure Being Worse Than the Disease

The Left will be skating on ever-thinner ice as their TDS finds none of the usual outlets. Their cries of Orange Man ruining everything will be answered with inquiries and probes into Beijing Biden’s many compromises. If Biden is disposed of, the first female (half) black American President will have gotten there by way of disgrace. Harris will never be elected President. Harris’s presidency, if it happens, will be a sad, pockmarked milestone and not one that American women can be proud of. Harris, the original quid pro quo ho, was already a laughingstock when Tulsi Gabbard ripped her to shreds over her record of punishing parents of truants by sending those parents to jail.

An increasingly disenfranchised, insane Christian Right will find ready converts in the multitudes of formerly middle class people who have lost their jobs, homes, and bodily autonomy in the form of mandated vaccines. They’ll be all too ready to believe the hype about a New World Order that really ought to be dealt with lest their be a Great Reset along the lines of a conveniently depopulated Green New Deal. The demons of the Left will find easy prey in the suggestible, eager Right, who will be chomping at the bit to make a deal in order to get the revenge they crave. 
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I was hagged yesterday morning. I was walking down a flight of stairs in a dream. A shadowy thing was headed in the opposite direction. As we crossed paths, it forced me through itself and latched on to my back. It tried to force me to invite it into my body. Of course I said no. I called on Poseidon via my memorized Orphic hymn -- it clung on despite my invocation, though not as strongly. It was still there when I woke up, slithering around my neck and head and chattering away in my ears.

I took a hoodoo bath immediately upon rising, deeper than usual, which was a rude wake up call. (I've gotten soft due to my lifestyle of modern suburban luxury.) The bath seemed to dislodge the Thing that wanted to go for a ride. During that morning's Sphere of Protection, I saw it ushered back to the Abyss by two tall figures and a third in the background.

Despite doing the Sphere of Protection every day for nearly three years, discursive meditation for over three years, daily prayer, and divination, I still have scary bouts on the astral. Approximately three weeks ago, another entity slimed me in much the same manner as today.

I had my first vivid astral travel experience/lucid dream around the age of four. The experience was remarkably similar to this morning's hagging. Just as some people naturally draw mosquitoes more than others, I draw incorporeal entities of all sorts. This was the case when I was raised Christian, when I became Wiccan as a teen, when I discarded Wicca for a long stint of atheism, and it is still the case now as I study Druidry. Nothing has truly changed about my attractiveness to entities fair and foul except my ability to shield myself via Druid rituals and mind-strengthening, and for that shielding I am eternally grateful.

The abilities I have with unseen beings can often be of great comfort and a source of happiness: because of my natural ability to communicate with the unseen, I have been able to assist dead loved ones and friends with crossing over. I walk into the forest preserve and I get the same rush a natural extrovert gets from walking into a crowded party -- I talk to trees, houses, bodies of water, patches of air, and I'm beginning to be able to talk to certain animals. Sensitivity, I have learned, is a balance. I have always been extremely sensitive and only Druidry got through to me enough so I could learn to harness it.

I'm not alone in my sensitivity, of course, but I am one of the lucky few sensitives who was in the right time at the right place. Druidry was my saving grace; Christianity simply didn't work for me and I have no passion for Eastern religions such as Shintoism or the practice of yoga. Sensitives like me tend to get sucked into believing we are "star children" or worse, being lured into atheist demonolatry with its edgelord posturing and improvised black candle spells.

Both the Rhonda Byrne-esque positivity movement and atheist "witches" have much to answer for in the current state of the astral plane. We are in an astral cesspool. Banishing ritual or not, there is precious little between us and a boiling bog of eternal stench. The Professional Managerial set and atheist warlocks/witches have chosen to swim through without even the benefit of a raft. Antifa/BLM and the Magic Resistance gleefully slide down the chute to the sewers with their foul toxic feminism, their inability to discriminate a blunt hammer applied to public discourse (their penchant for gaslighting and foul language), protests (riots), and magic (demonolatry). On the other side, toxic masculinity bleats about the importance of reseeding and restoring Christendom, never understanding that wasting away in front of a computer screen is perhaps the best possible route to loneliness and sperm dilution. In their minds, the blame for all of the world's evils lies squarely upon slutty women, cuckolds, and the great globalist cabal. Add to this stewpot the dire reality that almost all work for pay is horrendous drudgery. Teamwork? That's Bulls**tese for a pyramid scheme designed to fool suckers into providing enthusiastic labor for a greedy fat cat who vacations in Aruba and is on his third trophy wife. Attitude? That's the term the corporate zombies who control your life use to gaslight you into believing you didn't work hard enough when you are downsized. Commitment? That's what you are supposed to give endlessly to your boss without the faintest hope that you'll receive the basics of yesteryear in return: health insurance, vacations, the ability to afford a small, modest home. If you do land a job where you are taken care of, expect to trade no less than your immortal soul for your prosperity: the more you make, the more people are gunning for your position and the more you have to spend to fit in with others of your high class.

Now combine all of the aforementioned sludge with profound religious ignorance. I truly hope Christianity of the old fashioned stripe such as Old Skool Catholicism and Greek Orthodoxy makes a big comeback, because we need all of the exorcists and Christian mystics we can get right now. I hope the yoga people who have been thrown out of their suburban studios because of silly COVID rules head to the forests and start talking with the trees. I hope the vegan atheist Instagram witches get sick of personal and political blowback and start becoming serious Manly P. Hall quoting occultists. I argue that we need people interested in non-Harry Potter, antiseptic magic and prayer more than we need permaculturists and green wizards, and we need permaculturists and green wizards quite badly.

I'm doing what I can. Though because of my business, I must keep abreast of the politics that affect me, I have largely removed myself from politics and politicking. I recently did a big double hoodoo vacuum of my Studio (not a floor wash because it's got lots of carpeting) and I'll do a series of blessings on it in the following weeks. I'm praying and playing Orphic hymns every day. I'm wearing a red bag amulet. Making charms for around the house. Cups of vinegar and bowls of salt. Please pray for me that my measures will be adequate.
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I'm in the logo design stage of planning for my book Sacred Homemaking and I'm wondering what my readers think of these. Let me know if you like any one of them and let me know what you would change, if anything. I'm not attached to any of them; I'm just brainstorming at this point.

EDITED: Just added more logos after Venereal Green Redux!

Black & White



Rustic Moon



Star & Moon



Venereal Green Redux



Moon & Stars Pagan Style



Enclosed Moon



Homey Home



Log Cabin

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Our culture knows a thing or two about wrath. One look at what used to make a popular movie before COVID and its army of Karens cancelled moviegoing (and by cancelling moviegoing, by accident cancelled Hollywood and its celebrities) reveals our wrathfulness in nearly every scene. From solitary zombie-slayers to Dexter to chiseled superheroes named "the Avengers", we Americans are a people with a chip on our collective shoulder and many axes to grind. You would think a nation of such decadent wealth and pandemic obesity would spend more time being grateful than engineering vendettas, but alas, the formerly mentioned virtues are more noble than the ones we choose to indulge.

Wrath Begets Wrath

Wrath is the idea of avenging one wrong while piling on others as if they were five cents a piece in the bargain bin of impingements at a grievance fire sale. Wrath is the child of frustration. Frustration arises when the world is primarily perceived as a sick, unjust, disgusting, unfair place, devoid of gods and therefore devoid of punishments for acting in a demonic fashion. Wrath happens when the frustrated take on the mantle of a god and smite perceived pathetic sinners "so things don't keep getting worse". Though Hollywood movies are fond of depicting wrath as a solo endeavor, meted out by heroic men and women in tights upon cardboard baddies, wrath's most common form is that of genocide. Wrath is amorphous. Wrath is fine with "almost", which usually only counts in the case of games of horseshoes and the lobbing of hand grenades.

The problem with wrath is that it is the function of a grandiose ego. The wrathful perceive the world as spun out of control. They conclude that they are the only ones able to control it. People with big egos are naturally wrathful because they feel entitled. There's always one group to be conveniently blamed: women who get abortions, blacks, whites, Muslims, Asians, Jews.

Team Anti-Human

Let's use the example of a particularly wrathful group: the childfree vegan antinatalists. I know many of them and you would be surprised what great people most of them are. Nevertheless, they labor under the notion that any decision to create more humans on a planet of shrinking resources is vile and immoral. They are equal-opportunity haters. A good faction of them hate themselves for being human and see humans as a scourge of the planet whom the Earth would be better off without. They mistakenly aggrandize the animal kingdom, conveniently overlooking and excusing egregious cruelty in non-human animals. For instance, did you know that bedbugs engage in homosexual rape, and because of the phenomenon of sperm-hijacking, a male bedbug can force another male bedbug to carry a pregnancy to term? Bedbugs are the tip of the iceberg when it comes to animal's injustice to other animals. Humans' noble cousins, the chimpanzees, invented the concept of raiding a neighbor's village, stealing their stuff, and enslaving the survivors. They did this long before proto-humans emerged from the trees.

Wrath is pointless. All it does is create more wrath.

Enablement

The opposite of wrath is enablement, and true to form of any deadly sin, it is just as bad as wrath. To enable the wrathful and to let them get away with murder is to become a sheeple who turns the other cheek until that cheek is a bloody hole. Take the bad parent who refuses to set limits for their child. A shrieking, hitting, spitting tantrum from the child earns toys and supplication. Never does the screaming hellion earn consequences for their actions. I'm not saying that children should be corporeally punished -- I am not a parent in this incarnation and I can't be the judge of parents -- however, those who gave into their child's tantrums from the approximate era of 1980 - 2000 created the insufferable Millennials who are rioting as we speak in the burnt out business districts of Portland, Oregon.

The term enablement is bandied about in addiction circles. Nobody leans into a beating more deftly than the circle of non-addicts who enable an addicted loved one. The worst outcome is when the addict's creeping foulness draws the naive and innocent into dependency because misery loves company.

When an opposing force is put in place, such as a child's bad behavior, it is more often than not a lesson we are being taught in order to strengthen the good we have inside. That's what I think, anyway. Giving up and letting the evil roll over you means you've failed and will have to learn the lesson an even harder setting. Retreating in milquetoast martyrdom does not make the lesson go away. In my own past, I stayed with boyfriends I didn't want instead of being "cruel to be kind". As reward for my cowardice, I spent many years in abject misery, never understanding the keys to freedom were in my hands.

Patience

Nothing in our Meat World is infinite, especially not patience. However, there's a case to be made for patience, a.k.a. the process of withholding judgement until all sides have been considered and if they cannot be considered by such small minds as ours, to leave judgement up to the superior intelligences known as gods. On a personal level, a really great counselor once guided me to think about my own "dealbreakers". Meaning, the things that I could not tolerate in a human acquaintance. One of my dealbreakers is racism, and I am not talking about the manufactured racism of Black Lives Matter which is actually a piecemeal, shoddy disguise for embittered, intellectually lazy bigotry against white people. I am talking about the racism that drove an ex-friend of mine to shun the idea of adopting a baby outside of her own particular race, because she was convinced she wasn't capable of loving a kid of a different color than her own. In other words, cutting her out of my life was for the best because just as she is limited in her racism, my limits prevent me from being friends with someone who genuinely thinks that her ethnicity makes her better than someone with a different ethnicity. I hate my ex-friend and I hate BLM for the same reason: they're racists through and through. I'm not going to fight them and I don't want revenge on them. I knowI acknowledge their existence and I stay the heck out of their way.

Patience means putting up a fight when users and abusers would rather steamroll you. Patience also means refraining from throwing your anger at them so it doesn't create an endless loop of retribution. My morality and my ethics are my business and your morality and ethics are yours. Patience is what is needed to figure out which one of us is actually right, and it is highly likely that only gods know the answer to that question.
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I'm putting off my usual post this week, which was the Seven Deadly Sins series, for a more pressing topic.  I suppose most of you have read the debacle that is JMG's astrological forecast for the Presidential Inauguration on January 20, 2021. If you haven't, to be terse, he describes it as "The most relentlessly malefic mundane chart I have ever studied".  In a word, yikes.

As I stated in a recent Dreamwidth post and accompanying video, I believe that a Biden Presidency will usher in a Great Depression.  Unfortunately, if Trump gets in, my Ogham (which are now pointing to the unlikelihood of a Trump 2020 - 2024 presidency, by the way) are predicting civil war, most likely in the form of insurgency and unorganized, bitter, guerrilla, small-scale flash points.  I fear civil war, but the thing I fear far more is a second Great Depression.  Frankly, I'm not ready.  I'm quite scrappy, and yes, I have realized that our civilization is on the downward slope of Hubbert's curve for a while now, but until eight months ago, I did not have the free time to learn to do the laundry list of homesteady things that will be the bridge into the deindustrial future.  

I'm still trying to process my anger at the people who have bought into the lockdowns and therefore helped to extend and worsen them.  This is especially bitter as the holidays arrive.  In my opinion, COVID hysteria was yet another botched attempt to get the Orange Man out of the Whitehouse after the failure of #metoo, impeachment, and BLM riots to do the job.  The oddest part of it is that the people who will cause the next Great Depression in the US, the Biden-supporting globalists, the so-called Progressives, and all those who bought into fear porn, will soon find their own unacknowledged privileges crumbling if mass financial disaster arrives.  The Professional Managerial Class needs to be on suicide watch.  Those who were the most fervent partakers in the circus of rackets that puffed up the economy over the last 50 or so years -- the sickcare industry, colleges/universities, infotainment, and insurance -- will suffer the most intensely as their way of life goes the way of the Ford Edsel.  I don't get it. 

I'm finding it hard to focus on the positive, and of course there is plenty of it.  I no longer care about money.  This was a lifelong challenge of mine that has been bested.  I have almost zero money anxiety issues at this point; I can't be bothered to care.  Not even if I go hungry or homeless.  I'll do my best to stop hunger or homelessness from happening of course (I've got an indoor cat and at least 2 outdoor ones plus a husband that depends on me) but I certainly won't blame myself if I lose everything as I might have done before.  The PMC I mentioned earlier, however, probably won't be so calm.  They also have a great deal more to lose. 

Let's look at my skills, shall we?  I will show you mine if you will show me yours.   

I can cook from scratch from almost nothing.  

I don't have any emotional reactions to my bank account when it says I have $8 to my name or that I'm overdrawn.  

I live in a tiny house that costs as little as humanly possible in a modest neighborhood.  We don't do associations or their fees here.

I am a somewhat capable gardener and I saved seeds this year.  

I don't bore easily and if the internet were shut down and I couldn't drive or go to work forever, I'd still have far too much to do in this lifetime.

I'm robustly healthy.  I walked 8 miles for fun on my 47th birthday this year and barely felt it.

I am a writer and musician.

I am not in debt except for my mortgage.

Now let's look at my shortcomings:

I don't like sewing machines and I cannot knit or crochet to save my life.

I don't own a gun and I wouldn't trust my marksmanship if I did.

I live in an area that was first to lock down and will be on the front lines when the economy tanks.  Said area is overrun with psychotic Professional Managerial Class types.

I don't have any savings; what little I was able to save was eaten by the first lockdown.

If everything goes to hell, I'm going to have to figure out how to move two pianos.

I have not grown beans, potatoes, hard shell squash, or cucumbers successfully at this time.

I know how to can but I have never canned by myself.

I may be healthy, but most of my loved ones are battling one or more chronic diseases.  

I have studied herbalism intensely but I have not done much in the realm of herbalism.

So that's where I'm at.  I am stockpiling supplies despite being in a bad financial position.  My goal is to put away enough rice, beans, pasta, sugar, vegetable oil, and canned fruit to last my husband and I six months.  I have already ordered seeds from Baker Creek Heirloom Seeds because seeds and plant starts were nearly impossible to get in spring 2020 in Illinois.  I'm going to embark on soapmaking after Thanksgiving -- that's one I have put off for a small eternity despite possessing the necessary supplies.  I'm planning for a lean, homespun Christmas.  My loved ones will receive a motley assortment of handmade gifts of homemade soups, salad dressing, sweets, bath bombs, macrame, and perhaps some Dollar Tree toys, I hope that's good enough because it is already turning out to be an exceptionally lean year.  And of course I'll be praying for all who ask me to pray on their behalf to the gods as well as performing Orphic Hymns every day as per usual on my Youtube channel.  

The terrifying part for me is trying to keep my Studio up and running if poop is hitting the fan because of either Depression or civil insurgency.  Fingers crossed that neither of those happen.  I'm already thinking of setting up my subscription library in the much underused commercial space as I have enough books to begin, I think.  Mainly, my goal of late is to do constructive things instead of wallowing in anger at the PMC for crushing my business and other businesses like it.  Today I arranged over 30 pages of music for my sheet music store.  

Please let me know your thoughts and what you guys are doing to prepare, if anything.  Of course as always I could be wrong about what is coming -- I sincerely hope to be wrong!  I thank you in advance for refraining from profanity in the comments.

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"Envy, if surrounded on all sides by the brightness of another's prosperity, like the scorpion contained within a circle of fire, will sting itself to death."
-Charles Caleb Colton


Of all the Deadly Sins, I think it can be safely argued that Envy is the most suicidal. It isn't possible to be happy when you strive to possess what others possess, because envy ensures that they will always seem better off than you, whether it is true or not. Envy makes for interesting characters: Medea, Othello, Scarlett O'Hara; interesting and also doomed.

Our culture is beset by envy: how better to drive masses of people to hyperconsume stuff they don't need? Advertising depends upon our envious natures to get us to bite. Envy is rooted deep in the subconscious, whispering in our ears that we are inferior and ugly, but if we had what she has, we could get a leg up once and for all...

Celebrities

There used to be a television series called Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous hosted by Robin Leach.  Those who watched the show remember the infamous intro.  Between Leach's annoying, nasal squawks, a more radio ready voice croons "Your host is Robin Leach, who circles the world to bring you the stories people will never stop talking about." Imagine the arrogance it took to create such a tagline, spoken against the backdrop of cheesy aspirational orchestral muzak and shots of tacky McMansions, Rolls Royces, and polo tournaments. The content of the series was a vacuous parade of soon-to-be has been celebrities, tours of their metastasized homes, and mini-documentaries of their extravagant purchasing habits.  The premise was that their lives would never get any worse and their obscene wealth would continue into perpetuity. The series did not age well, and I suspect future historians will show it to college students who will laugh to disguise their abject horror at their forefather's and foremother's superficiality, materialism, and outright denial of the inevitable deindustrial future.

If those college students were to ask me as a centenarian if the people who used to watch Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous were happy, I would answer a definitive NO and add that the people creating and starring on the show were equally unhappy. I would point out another piece of media, this one closer to their era, in the form of The Greatest Showman, a bizarre movie musical biopic loosely based upon the life and times of American huckster P.T. Barnum. The overly-autotuned music and themes of The Greatest Showman revolve around grandiose notions of limitlessness and its personal counterpart, walloping egomania. The P.T. Barnum character is introduced to us as a child of modest means in puppy love with his neighborhood contemporary, Charity Hallett. Charity is from a rich family, and the title track of the musical speaks to the nuclear family they will build along with a gigantic, extremely McMansion-ish house and the limitlessness of their greatness as adults. Another key song in the film is Never Enough, sung by a highly fictionalized Jenny Lind, who does her best to seduce P.T. Barnum away from his plainer wife. Side characters Phillip and Anne, part of P.T. Barnum's entourage, put on display the class tensions so obviously harped upon by the film in tiresome repetition. The themes at work in The Greatest Showman are envy in the form of class warfare and the conspicuous consumption necessary to achieve American Dream: the idea that each one of us can and must be the very best and risk it all to achieve unrealistic and lofty goals.  

I would then point the college students (yeah I'm done with them yet) to the 2020 TikTok hit Heather, where a young man says "kinda wish she were dead" when the male object of his affections is enchanted by a young woman named Heather.  Heather is the high school version of resignation and disingenuous humility that is the aftermath of envy.   The envious one slinks back to his empire of warm, comforting hatred, crafted by years of focused bitterness.

The Sycophant

Envy not only eats our material earnings, it devours and hollows us from the inside. Often, envy will roost in the psyche masquerading as humility. Such was the case of Yolanda Saldívar, a nurse who befriended rising Tejano pop star Selena Quintanilla-Pérez by shoehorning her way into the family's circle by becoming president of Selena's burgeoning fan club. Saldívar was caught embezzling and fatally shot Selena when gently confronted by the younger woman. Saldívar is currently serving her prison sentence for murder and will be eligible for parole in 2025. Saldívar's envy was of one of the classic types so common nowadays, the kind that is a demented sort of love for the envied person, who "has it all" in comparison to the envier. The celebrity worshipper loses their own identity in the process of envying the celebrity, and quickly falls into a state of hating the celebrity, often enough to murder them. Of course murdering the subject of one's envy makes matters worse: the victim is canonized as a saint.

The Opposite of Envy: Rejection

The other side of envy's imbalance is Rejection. Envy is exhausting and hollowing, and one predictable reaction to it is to swing to a polar opposite of envy to a state of passionate disdain. Our much-belabored celebrities are useful subjects with which to demonstrate this phenomenon, because they are quickly going from a universally loved to universally hated status as we speak, in real time. Pedogate is a form of arrogant rejection of that envy. Believing that all celebrities are complicit in Satanic cabals who drink infant blood and eat feces is a way of replacing envy with equally toxic assumptions that the once-envied person is hideously inferior to oneself. It doesn't matter that such vile accusations cannot be proven; all that is needed is for the emptiness of envy to be replenished by junk beliefs in the evilness of the once-beloved celebrity. On top of this is the frenetic insistence that one's own life record is blameless and innocent because one has at least not engaged in Satanic baby sacrifice. In essence, there is a refusal to see the good in another person because that would require honestly dealing with one's own inferiority complex, whereas envy is a poisoned form of love that cloaks hatred in pining for the unattainable perfection of the envied Other.

Admiration: The Happy Medium

In between the two extremes of Envy and Rejection lies Admiration, a healthy state that says "You do you, I'll do me, and what makes us different makes us complementary, not competitors. This sort of acceptance leaves room for one's own faults so they can be worked on instead of dissonantly projected on to someone else. By standing back and admiring someone without wishing we could be them, we shed the Piscean idea that we must all fit the same mold or climb a pre-ordained pyramid in a dog eat dog, winner takes all series of playoffs. Instead of seeking a state of Borg hive homogeny and secretly adopting the Highlander's statement that "there can be only one", we accept that everyone should be free to do their own thing.  This includes not shooting someone out of jealousy or rounding up the elites into concentration camps because one believes their entire class of people engages in Satanic pedophilia.

Admiration acknowledges that this world is unjust and that some people have opportunities than others, but it does not seek to paper over the differences or unduly celebrate mediocrity. Admiration is about finding the good in someone who  differs from you and using that commonality to become friends, and if friendship is not possible, to at least tolerate each other and maintain enough distance where each party can live their own lives. I once said to one of my students, "If you want to be accepted for who you are, you've got to accept your friend for who he is." Energy does not happen in a vacuum and all of what we put out comes back to us. That's why all of us, myself included, need to work on letting go of fixation with other people, recognize what we are best at, and take ourselves to task for our own personal shortcomings, for we live in a big world that is only as small as you want to make it.
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I’m not ready for the Great Depression.  I think that’s what we are up against.  If Biden cheats his way in, throws the country into unconstitutional lockdowns for six weeks, we are looking at Weimar America, catastrophic economic collapse, and hyperinflation.  That said, Trump may still manage to become the President.  Despite the fact the spoiled child Democrats would use a Trump win to maraud through cities and suburbs in tantrums I mean riots, it would be far better for regular people if he gets in because a catastrophic collapse won’t be anywhere near as likely under his watch.  I believe Sidney Powell when she talks about tsunami level fraud.  Like Powell, I believe Trump won in a landslide and got cheated by a tsunami.  I hope she does release the Kraken.   Though we are not used to seeing treasonous politicians go to prison, I think the founding fathers would have sent the Clinton, Obama, and Biden cabals to their execution for crimes against the US.  Not going to happen, of course, but those are my thoughts.   My divinations and the readings of other occultists whom I trust are saying that Trump will prevail and remain President for four more years.  Nevertheless, I think we have to think about a Biden presidency and prepare for a potential Great Depression.

 

The Astral Morass

 

Things are getting bad in my area of suburban Chicago.  The local schools are going to be closed until Fall 2021 from what it looks like.  The kids hate it and the smart ones all know it’s bullcrap.  Restaurants are shut down.  People are on edge.  The fearmongers are winning — there are mini-freak outs everywhere, people dramatically staying home from work because they knew someone who came within five feet of someone who had COVID.  The most palpable part of it is the hair trigger feeling, the negative electricity that seems to infuse the air.  Driving has been really bad.  I am seeing more accidents than ever before on my commute, tons of sirens and ambulances.  Anyone who is sensitive to the unseen (I’m talking psychic stuff, like empaths) is in hell because of the generally trashy state of the collective mind right now.  If you’re above the age of puberty, I highly recommend doing a daily banishing ritual such as this one and wearing a basic protection amulet every day, and if you pray to a god, right now would be a good time to redouble your efforts.

Unhappy Winners

You would think the Democrats would be happy their cheating paid off, but they’re not.  We now have Portland rioters ahem I mean protestors shouting that they don’t want Biden, they want revenge.  Isn’t that rich?  Revenge for what?  Not getting their gay automated luxury welfare communism on schedule?  Revenge because the single family home they inherited from their grandmother won’t clean and repair itself?  The Democrats in the US have become the epitome of toxic femininity.  What I’m talking about here is the passive, receptive idea they have that the world owes them a living.  They were often born on third and think they hit a homer.  They consider themselves self-starters but when we get down to brass tacks, they were born with many advantages that they are nearly consistently ungrateful for.  I knew a rich girl who was bitterly depressed that she wasn’t a celebrity.  She worshipped celebrities so much that it angered her that her family didn’t have the right connections or money to provide her with a career as a film director.  This girl is par for the course.  Every upper middle class liberal I grew up with battles depression that springs from a grandiose foundation of personal entitlement.  There is no sense of noblesse oblige for these types because they honestly see themselves as poor.  They don’t have Bill Gates money or Stephen Spielberg money, therefore they are poor.  

Let Them Watch Netflix

These are the people who will cause the Great Depression and not be aware of how they caused it.  There is an attitude among rich city dwellers and comfortable suburbanites that everybody can hole up in their residences, binge watch Netflix, order takeout and grocery delivery, and easily coordinate a work from home schedule with their employer.  Anyone who thinks that this is a doable model for the average working class American is breathtakingly naive.  Outside of a small professional managerial salary class bubble, there’s hardly one of us who can take off a few days when we are sick let alone a permanent cushy telecommuter arrangement.  Everyone knows this except for the Marie Antoinette Facebook/Instagram addicts who virtue signal from their smartphones.  My work as a music teacher doesn’t work that way.  Mostly, I teach singing, and the curriculum lessons involves the student singing into a microphone in a sound abated vocal booth about 60% of their lesson time.  So yes, it’s one of those jobs where you have to be there.  Democrats cry SAFETY as they attempt to force me out of a business that I built from scratch twenty four years ago.  I would understand if this was ebola or polio but we all know COVID is neither of those.  In 2018, 350K people died in car accidents in the US.  The ginned up, inflated number of American deaths due to COVID is 230K.  This means that I am statistically more likely to die as a result of getting in a car than I am of COVID, and not by a small factor.  According to the logic of fearmongers, this statistical fact means we should end all use of automobiles immediately.  

Who's Ready For A Great Depression?

 

I’m not ready for a Great Depression, despite the fact I’ve known our entire civilization is in a slow, uneven spiral towards deindustrialization.  Our empire is fraying as it tumbles to its inevitable end.  We are Rome, we are the Classic Maya, we are 17th century Spain.  I saw the writing on the wall years ago, which is why I made it my goal to live in a modest house in a modest neighborhood.  I achieved my goal — my house is so small, current zoning laws would not permit it to be rebuilt as small as it is.  My neighbors are every color of the skin color rainbow.  I vegetable garden and I’m semi-OK at it, but I am not Depression ready.  We have northern Illinois winters here and I am NOT a master gardener despite having gardened for about five years.  I have never canned food on my own (I helped a friend can tomatoes and that’s it).  I cook from scratch fairly well and of course that is helpful, but I’m far from being a hundred percent self-sufficient if all the poop hits all the fans.

 

Overall though?  I’ll be fine.  You know why?  I have studied the Stoics.  I am a deeply spiritual person.  I pray.  I am constantly doing banishing rituals and blessings.  Furthermore, though I was once upper-middle class and miss the perks such as not worrying about how to pay utility bills and being able to do my laundry in my own home, I’m fine with being lower middle class.  I don’t see it as deprivation at all.  I see myself as enjoying luxuries Roman emperors had no access to: chocolate covered strawberries in midwinter, anyone?  Ice cream in the summer?  My liberal ex-friends who spend most of their time on Facebook virtue signaling are in for a much rougher ride.  One point of it is economic: I don’t live high on the totem pole in a well-off neighborhood where one is constantly keeping up with the Joneses.   I don’t have kids.  I don’t even have much of a lawn — every year it gets chipped away for my gardens.  It’s not me who has to worry about finding a skill that people are willing to trade for when all of the stock dividends and bond markets dry up via the Depression.  That’s the thing about the salary class: most of their income comes from dividends, bonds, stock market stuff and retirement packages.  Like I mentioned earlier, this often happens in the form of an inherited gift such as grandmother’s old house, but I have yet to meet an affluent salary class person who didn’t have a great deal of wealth tied up in stocks and their derivatives. In a Great Depression, the market crashes and all of that type of hallucinatory wealth vaporizes.  All of those comfortable folk will be in very bad shape if they get the Depression they are gunning for in the form of Joe Biden.  I may not know how to can my own soup but they don’t know how to live.  When the food I have is down to 2 cups of flour, an onion, a can of stewed tomatoes, and a quarter cup of cooking oil, I don’t worry, because I can make a two course meal out of that: flatbreads and tomato soup, easy.  They will sit in front of their nearly empty cupboards and cry.  They will lash out at their kids.  They will blame their mates.  They will drink and do drugs.  They will open their wrists into a warm bathtub.  They can’t deal with a Great Depression. Their identity is all tied up in the stuff they have to display to others.  Their stuff owns them.

 

That’s why it makes no sense that they are eager to bring on a fatal round of devastating economic setbacks in the form of Biden and lockdowns.  This is why I theorize they are obsessed by demonic forces: how else could they be so compelled to shoot themselves in both feet?  One thing the salary class has failed to understand is that sooner or later, they are affected by a crashing economy.  They may have skidded by while hair salons, karate studios, dance troupes, show choirs, and restaurants dropped like flies.  They may have Netflixed and chilled while the hospitality and travel industries imploded and while small manufacturers dried up.  They may have online binge shopped while the car dealership closed and the local movie house shut its doors for good, but they too will feel the economic sting if we get Biden and a Great Depression.  

 

The Four Horsemen

 

It’s not just stock and bond wealth that goes away in a Depression.  The way I see it, there are four industries that serve as the horsemen of the Professional Managerial Class’s coming apocalypse.  They are Health/Sickcare, Insurance, Entertainment, and College.  

 

The Sickcare Industry

 

We are quickly getting to the point where nobody will trust an allopathic doctor as far as they can throw them.  The sick care industry is bloated and it has the gigantic hospitals to prove it.  Did you ever notice how huge hospitals in the US have become?  They are often as large as cities.  Think of all the money they charged people for stupidly expensive drugs, for astronomical health insurance, and for dramatically inflated surgeries, and hospital room and board. Now think of how many people die horrendous, wasting deaths of cancer, kidney disease, and lung disease anyway.  Where does all that money go?  The words “money laundering” come to mind whenever I see a giant hospital.  The sickcare industry stopped even attempting to cure people long ago — no, it’s all about “managing” one’s health so they remain in a state of suffering so that maximum dollars can be extracted from them and their families.  Sickcare, health insurance, and Big Pharma have been disgustingly corrupt for a long time.  COVID proved how evil these people are in their hearts, being lauded as heroes while participating in the trapping the elderly in solitary confinement and not allowing people to die surrounded by their loved ones.  Any administrator, doctor, nurse, or health care worker complicit in the travesties we’ve got going on right now is karmically accountable.  I didn’t make the rules: do a garbage deed, like preventing an old dying grandfather from seeing his grandkids, and you will deal with garbage karma.  It’s cause and effect.

 

The Insurance Industry  

 

Generator of massive colonies of office plankton.  So many insurances: life insurance, home insurance, health insurance, mortgage insurance, car insurance.  In a Great Depression, does the salary class believe that everyone will remain conscientious about their insurance payments?   Fat chance, and if we collectively decide we cannot afford insurance, there are legions of cozy e-commuting insurance workers who won’t be able to find a job literally to save their lives.

 

The Infotainment Industry 

I know someone who is mega rich because he has a fancy job that involves the building of large entertainment venues.  This mega rich person lives in a giant McMansion in a super posh neighborhood.  If the Democrats get their wish and close down sports stadiums, convention centers, and performance arenas for the next decade or two, this person is 100% out of a job.  Remember what I said about my gardening and coming home to an empty cupboard and not panicking?  These people don’t garden.  He will not know what to do.  Unlike me, there’s not a person in his household who can fix a broken pipe or pick up a guitar and teach someone how to play it.  They will end up squatting in their own luxury McMansion as the roof springs leaks, that is if they don’t become homeless as they’ve done a fairly good job of alienating all but a select few who occupy the same elite class ladder rung as they do.  

 

The College Industry 

If you or a loved one is in college or thinking about going there, I would highly recommend they consider sitting it out for a year.  What we have in the college industry is frenetic competition for ever-smaller pieces of affluent pie.  Before COVID, the job market was already glutted with liberal arts majors desperate to get jobs in their field while neck deep in college debt.  Now one is expected to spend the college years in solitary confinement, telecommuting to classes from one’s jail cell I mean dorm room on campus.  Plus one’s parents are still expected to pay full tuition for the privilege.  College was a racket when I went 26 years ago, and this is coming from someone who uses her four year degree every single day, plus my job is heavily tied to my degree.  Let’s face it, if you can’t go to college to at least flirt with potential mates and socialize with buddies, it isn’t worth it.  Hell, it’s hardly worth the 20K per year if you have those things.  If the Great Depression occurs, nobody’s going to college.  Maybe a select few will go but I’d expect it to be like the 1900s — you only went to college if you were deadly serious about it, and it basically took a whole village worth’s of resources to get you there because you were tremendously gifted.  Again, with the college racket deflated, what will these people do?  What do all the teacher’s aides and administrators and admissions counselors do?  Are they going to be okay with packing up and moving back in with their elderly parents at age 43 with husband and kids in tow?  Cause that’s what’s gonna happen. It’s either that or be homeless and live out of a van.

 

We live in a fading empire that over-expanded itself into collapse.  Why are Democrats trying to bring on the collapse?  Are they actually this stupid?  Sadly, I think the answer is Yes.  This is a group of generations of people so used to skating away from the consequences of their actions, I think they believe nothing truly bad will happen to them because nothing truly bad has happened before.  If Trump gets in, I believe the Left will attempt to tear the country apart via civil war in the form of insurgencies, however, this is vastly preferable to the Left winning and getting a Great Depression that only people like me will manage to thrive in.  

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One of my favorite discursive meditation series has been the Seven Deadly Sins. When I started doing discursive meditation three years ago, the Seven Deadly Sins gave me an opportunity to dive into my own past for my cringiest moments, allowing me to process a great deal of astral garbage that had piled up over the years. I have been revisiting those old meditations lately, expanding on them in a new way by understanding the Sins as states of imbalance.

One of my big issues with modern Christianity is its bad habit of oversimplifying solutions to problems as binaries. This, unfortunately, is the legacy of thinking of sin as binary: good versus evil, angel versus demon, God versus Satan. When I came up with my own system of Ogham divination, I decided to frame each tree letter outside of the Forfedha as three possibilities: two potential modes of imbalance for every single state of balance. In other words, I apply the phrase "the opposite of one bad thing is reliably another equally bad thing" and treat each tree letter as a spectrum. Out the outsides of the spectrum are the extremes and in the middle lies a state of balance. If you're saying, "Hey wait, that sounds like an Aristotlean approach to divination," you would be exactly correct. Aristotle argued that all of the good stuff in life is achieved by finding a Golden Mean or a balance. This striving for balance is what I believe Christianity threw away over the centuries. In the construction of arch-evil as a scapegoat, Christians resorted to a "if you're not with us, you're against us" philosophy that saturates modern political zeitgeists as well as the narrative of Progress. For this reason, I seek to turn the old Christian standys, the Seven Deadly Sins, on their ear and reframe them as Seven Ternaries in which the Seven Virtues are states of balance.

I'm sure you've guessed that this will be a seven part series, one essay for each sin. I'll be starting with my thoughts on Greed.

Here is a chart I have made to get your mental wheels running:

My Definition of Greed

The definition of Greed varies with everyone who encounters it: Greed, along with all the other Deadly Sins, is subjective. For instance, when I commute to work, I pass through a neighborhood of McMansions. In my opinion, McMansions are an unwitting symbol of greed. They are huge, inefficient, showy wastes of resources that cause harm directly and indirectly. On the more obvious side, they squander water, building materials, and electricity. On the less obvious side, every McMansion dweller drives up the price of housing in his/her immediate area, making it financially impossible for anyone of modest means to live close to their jobs or to amenities like shopping. In the US, zoning laws are designed to prevent the live-work housing situations of old, segregating shopping and business districts from housing subdivisions, and the McMansion lifestyle is instrumental in making that happen. So yeah, anyone who chooses to live in a McMansion is greedy, in my opinion. 

I think Greed is potentially the worst Sin, which is why I am starting out with it. Greed is the horrible force that motivates a country's leadership to starve its constituents because all the grain is sold to other countries for profit. Greed is amorphous: it combines other Deadly Sins such as Gluttony and Envy into its own sodden snowball. Greed is the preference of living and dying a miserable death in a decrepit, Collier Brothers style hoard when presented with a nearly infinite array of other choices in one's incarnation, including the path of altruism.  But altruism would involve the idea of giving one's toys away... and therein lies the rub.  It's entirely possible to be poor and greedy, don't get me wrong -- does anyone else remember the Sarah and the Junk Lady scene from Jim Henson's Labyrinth, where protagonist Sarah realizes all of the toys proffered to her is junk distracting her from the goal of finding her kidnapped baby brother?  I have known many older women (and a few men) who were the living personifications of Junk Lady, and none of them were outside of the lower middle class.  The junk monger, whether entombed in her cluttered McMansion or scraping out a meager shopping cart bag lady existence, cannot let go of their material mounds for fear of deprivation.  Hoarding doesn't always manifest in a disheveled space, either.  Greed may frequently show itself in ostentatious housing or piles of unused detritus, but there are strict minimalists who are just as greedy as the most seasoned hoarder.  Greed is the state of grasping onto things you can't take with you when you die.  It is a state of parsimony and unwillingness to share.  The greedy live with the background hum of constant anxiety that somebody, somewhere is going to take all of their goodies away.  They are not wrong; that somebody is Death and he apparently does not accept credit cards.

Liberality: The Opposite and Equally Bad Counterpart of Greed

Liberality is called a Virtue -- I disagree.  If Greed is the damming up of resources and wealth flows, Liberality is the city destroying flood that happens when we obliterate the dam.  In other words, Liberality is Socialism.  Socialism idealizes the equity of outcomes.  It's not enough to avoid amassing hoards of wealth for oneself -- no, socialism would have the McMansion dweller disenfranchised and forced into a labor reeducation camp, his children spirited away to a brutal foster care system.  The McMansionite's material riches are then mostly wasted out of spite.  Anything left after the predictably violent Revolution is siphoned off to various ass-kissers who virtue signaled the hardest in the initial throes of communist victory.  Liberality represents an inability to discriminate: "You're for us or against us" bellow the Twitterati, making lists of Trump supporters and anti-maskers like myself in hopes of interrogating and torturing them at a later, post-Revolutionary date.  The fear of deprivation that drives McMansion greed is within the same genus as the one driving Liberality, except Socialists go one step further in thinking they know what is best to rectify the situation.  They seek to remove the limits to (allegedly) spread wealth around whereas Gordon Gecko walls himself off in his luxury apartment, stopping all of the leaks that would allow plebians into his exclusive building.  Socialists see themselves as little Jesuses enforcing the divine will of the God-State, flushing the hard-earned possessions of others down the memory hole along with freedom of speech and the ability to make an honest living via hard work.  It's one thing to choose to give away your worldly possessions as Christ the Lord did and quite another to force others to live out your vision of aesthetic holiness.  There is never the consideration that poverty is not necessarily the McMansion dweller's lesson to learn in this incarnation, nor is it the Socialist's job to teach it.

Generosity: The Balance

Of course there is a state of balance between Socialist equity of outcomes and Capitalist greed, and that is Generosity.  Generosity sublimates, which is to say it transforms the everyday and mundane into the divine.  The simple act of sharing food with someone you love sublimates that food and makes it more nutritious and beneficial to the person or people you share it with.  Can we prove the food is more nutritious via scientific, meat plane, double blind studies?  I doubt it; there are too many variables.  As usual, there is no proof, there is only the long, slow, personal process of figuring out whether generosity sublimates or whether it does not.  There is only one way to find out, and that involves being generous.  Plus the value of the shared food is far more intense on the more subtle planes, such as the astral, mental, and above all, the spiritual plane, and we dumb humans don't have tools for measuring those plane's phenomena as most of us don't believe they exist. 

There is no wealth threshold in order to be generous: the poorest of the poor are often more magnanimous with what scrapings they have then the richest of the rich, but not necessarily. In the documentary Happy, the interviewees include the members of a family literally living in a shack on the side of a garbage dump.  They are poor, yet they are happy because they have each other.

Generosity is an act of grace.  It requires a letting go of one's fear of deprivation and attachment.  Generosity reinforces the idea that you cannot take it with you.  Generosity is also an act of bravery.  Being generous is risky: the imbalanced Greedy types and the imbalanced Liberalists are black holes.  Consider the greedy adult child (we all know one, I think) whose parents bail her out time and time again, giving her the best of everything until they themselves are exhausted, impoverished, or both.  Or maybe the adult child is an aspiring Socialist, funding her next disaster with parental money, taxpayer money, and donated money that disappears into a gaping void of grift and mismanagement. 

If one is the recipient of generosity, and I believe we all are whether we choose to acknowledge it or not, the best strategy is to say "Thank you" instead of the wasteful Socialist's or Greedster's response of "F*** you."  The ultimate repayment of generosity is to become a more generous person.  Generosity, when paid forward, creates a chain of sublimation which provides a foundation for learning.  Generosity nurtures and lays the foundation for creativity and beauty in oneself and others, a beauty that shines outward and serves to lift the foul enchantments currently plaguing the world.  

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