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I was an atheist ten years ago.  Atheism worked well for me in some respects.  In my own case, it was a life lesson to absorb certain forms of pragmatism.  Atheism helped me sort through religious and superstitious claptrap with a keen eye.  Later on, as I put my atheism behind me, the skepticism I cultivated as an atheist came in handy when I had to judge whether I was talking to myself, to an angel, human ghost, demon, or none of the above.  I have always talked to myself; the trouble with atheism is that it taught me that all voices ultimately were versions of myself.  I now know the voices in my head to be an ecosystem just like any other -- a collection of selves and outside forces.  Atheism taught me that I could create my own reality.  Atheism's fatal mistake is its presumption that any human can create his or her entire reality.  We most certainly cannot.

The concept of applying shrewd, skeptical discrimination to the various voices in one's own head leads me to today's conversation about the current victims of Hurricane Helene.  It is fitting that the bitch's name begins with hell, because Helene has brought hell on earth for both the people and animals in her path.  It began a little before the weekend of September 27, when an airborne tsunami was dumped on Florida, the Carolinas, and some parts of Tennessee.  The Appalachians and Western South Carolina were especially hard hit.  Some hurricanes can be ridden out, but the people caught in Helene have either died or are currently at extreme risk of dying from lack of food, lack of clean water, crazed looters, or if all else fails, drowning.  

I Heart Conspiracy Theories

Rumors are flying about that the Great Flood of 2024, a.k.a. Katrina on Steroids, may have been geo-engineered.  If you'll don a tinfoil hat with me, it is highly coincidental that this disaster happened near a defunct lithium mine that will likely be quietly bought once the rubble stops bouncing/sinking.  It's also rather funny that Helene happened in election season and specifically concentrated itself in Trump-supporting places where it is more common to see a pickup truck than a Tesla.  Another uncanny coincidence is the mainstream media's scanty coverage of the disaster, placing it somewhere behind Gaza and Ukraine.  You may know about Sean "Diddy" Combs gay rage and his immense dildo and baby oil collections, but I'll bet you did not know the Biden government deployed 700 National Guardsmen to Kuwait the same weekend the people of Asheville, NC waited for rescuers that never arrived.  Only on TikTok and Twitter could we see them as they floated down the flooded street on air mattresses and sinking, crumbling roofs through electrified water.  

As usual, there was nothing you or I could do, or that is how it seemed.  Our literally senile leaders who cannot manage to get through a single coherent sentence of a speech they did not write aren't about to grow the capacity to handle the nation's problems.  A flood of a different sort inundates the country, bringing with it entire new nations of child traffickers along with a stupid way of life that does not deserve to exist.  Meanwhile, the elite salary classes in my neck of the woods think that now is an appropriate time to go on tropical vacations that cost more than the full purchase price of my suburban house.  In their clueless bubble, it seems like a good idea to construct hulking luxury homes with multiple $12,000 range tops and outdoor patio setups that dwarf the costs of sending a young adult to college.  They're not worried.  I guesstimate that this sort of unearned wealth-wallowing will earn them multi-lifetime stints earning it back, fair and square, and that's why you'll always find me running for the nearest exit when unearned wealth beckons in my direction.  But what do I know... I could be wrong!

I feel helpless in the face of my fellow humans suffering and I do not like to feel helpless.  I feel grateful and guilty for my own comparative privilege, sitting here well-fed in my dry room.  I wish it was different, therefore I pray.  When I was atheist, I dismissed prayer as useless.  Prayer was a way to think of oneself as virtuous and helpful while remaining a couch potato.  

Those Angry Atheists

Atheists inherently believe they are the smartest beings on Earth.  A refusal to believe in God is often a statement of inherent intellectual superiority.  To the atheist, the only type of being that can exist must by default be perceptible by human senses.  If a tree falls in the forest and there is no human to see and hear it, the tree did not exist.  I once suffered through an atheist's animated speculation about the end of time.  The hypothesis, presented as a theory, included a scenario where humans learned to jump universes in order to escape the human race going extinct.  It is blackly hilarious how hard atheists cling to human incarnation, especially considering how many of them seem to hate this world and the people in it.  

As the self-proclaimed smartest beings in the Universe, atheists insist no being could possibly have the power to alleviate suffering, because if it did, it would not have created suffering to begin with.  The notion that Meatworld may be a particularly brutal set of tests meant to beat lead into gold terrifies them.  He won't admit it, but the alchemical prospect of being tested for his character causes the atheist to shrink from the yawning abyss he thought he was proud to surf.  

Part of Meatworld's hideous testing process seems to involve individual choices of what to do and how to act when others are suffering.  As the Rush song goes, by not choosing, you still have made a choice.  You and I cannot help by physically going down to flooded areas unless we can fly helicopters.  If not, we merely add ourselves to the hungry and waterlogged. 

Here Come the Celebrity Shills

Donating money -- well, you have to be careful.  I am seeing reports of people clearing dangerous roads, taking each other in, and sharing what little they have while church doors remain locked.  Christ consciousness is apparently alive and well, just not among Christian priests, pastors, or reverends.  If there are any churches that are honest down there, maybe I will donate to them.  The Red Cross proved itself to be a disaster just like Katrina where it was enlisted to "help".  Red Cross helped itself to people's donations just like Hillary Clinton (allegedly) helped herself in Haiti.  

Soon, multi-millionaire and billionaire celebrities will take a breather from adrenochrome partying to shill for disaster donations.  Never will it occur to them not to ask for money from a population that can barely afford groceries, let alone a single family home.  Never will it cross a celebrity's Monarch-split mind that true charity starts at home.  

If going to Western South Carolina will not help and if monetary donations merely trickle up towards that same elite class that may have geoengineered the hurricane, what should we do?

We pray.  Prayer is an act of trust.  To pray is to imply deference to beings who are smarter, kinder, and better than humans.  I like to generally call these beings Divine or The Divine.  Calling these mysterious mentors does not always yield perceptible, understandable results.  God works in mysterious ways.  Meatworld sucks and the truth is sometimes nothing can stop it from sucking in the way it is going to suck.  By praying, we may not be able to re-orient the world, but we can re-orient ourselves.  I guess in this way, the atheist condemnation of prayer as selfish is correct.  Prayer is an act of changing the self when it is sincere.  Unfortunately, a great deal of prayer is not sincere, especially in its Christian, Buddhist, Jewish, and Muslim forms.  When prayer is one-sided and makes a laundry list of ways God is supposed to act from a badly-remembered dogma, it quickly turns septic.  Sincere prayer rests in the acknowledgement of the Divine as superior, despite the Divine not materializing and outright stating its superiority.  Asking such a being for help does not guarantee help.  Dismissing the Divine ecosystem for your own narrow concept of what the Divine is supposed to entail according to a book or a powerful human being is not prayer, because prayer is a two-way street.

The genius of prayer lies in Hermes Trismegistus's old statement "as above, so below."  If you orient yourself towards helpful beings by acting like a mini-helpful being in your mundane life, you build an astral pyramid that joins to those who also want peace and prosperity for all humans.  The small reflects and refracts the large; the large reflects and refracts the small.  For instance, if you want to encourage people to heal from addictions, you must embody sanity and temperance in everyday life.  If you want to lead others to spirituality, it makes no sense to compel friends or family members into your particular church.  What does make sense is to live a life according to the Word and to embody gratitude, which soon draws people to you like honey.  

When we earnestly pray to higher beings, we invite their grateful, harmonious, balanced spirits into our lives.  We grow into the only kind of force that can topple the opposition.  Consider the opposition has nearly all of the money and power.  When we lust after their money and power, hoping to kick them down where they belong so we can take it, we become them because we become just like them.  When you pray and wish well for your fellow human beings, it makes you into the kind of person who wishes to raise up the whole rather than the sort who hopes to climb a ladder built of the corpses of the defeated.  When you choose to pray, it is a choice to become better than you were yesterday, if only by the slightest bit.  When you choose to live simply even when you have the choice of taking unearned wealth, it matters, because you save a group of people for earning your wealth for you.  

So please send prayers to the deity or deities (especially Earth goddesses) of your choice for Helene's victims.  May they have help from gods, angels, and saints.  Every little bit counts.  



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Prayer has been unfashionable among Davos wannabes and TED Talk hipsters until recently. Memes about the uselessness of prayer used to dominate Facebook along with legions of angry atheists always at the ready to chime in on comment sections of bereaved parents or videos of natural disasters, laughing at the faithful while likely crying inside. Something changed because Facebook/Twitter/Youtube (which will be referred to from now on as Twitboob) started including "Pray for Ukraine" with its buffet of multicolored virtue banners such as "Marked Safe from Whatever Hideous Tragedy Occurred This Week" and "I Got My Covid Vaccine".

Prayer isn't always good. Prayer is non-physical communication between a human and another entity. Usually this prayer is mental but there are some who choose to conjure up the entity they are praying to by force, which is kind of like when an obnoxious drunk friend wants to talk at 3 in the morning, but instead of just calling you, they parachute onto your lawn, break into your house, hog tie you, and drag you back to their basement in order to talk to you. Some prayer is good and some prayer is bad. Some entities are good and some entities are bad. When I was a kid, I confused praying to Santa Claus with praying to Jesus and once I prayed to both in the same night. Anyone can be prayed to. People can pray to Kimberly Steele -- I sincerely hope they don't, but they can. There are several Etsy vendors who make celebrity novena candles. In an episode of Orange is the New Black, two characters fervently pray to Beyoncé. It is my opinion that the MRNA vaccines of various stripe open a direct channel to certain demons of the Goetia, and that is why so many of the vaxxed end up with possession-like symptoms such as tremors and projectile vomiting. To make a long story short, not all prayer is good or consensual, and when prayer is directed at a non-human entity, it is very easy for it to become rude. It is also very easy to pray to a demon when you think you're praying to an angel, or to be praying to a minor spirit when you think you or praying to a god, or to be speaking with a nasty trickster spirit instead of your dead father through a medium or Ouija board.

Backward Christian Soldiers

Christians often pray as a form of war. Their God is often mistaken for a cosmic vending machine as well as a vengeful punisher who inflicts pain like a mafia boss. The sort of Christian who prays for the punishment of others (often in secret but sometimes right in the open) imagines himself and his team as Right and all others as Wrong. Bible literalists take a statement like "preach unto all nations" as a direct imperative to force-infect the rest of humanity with the Yahweh-virus at all costs.

Songwriter Happy Rhodes has a song called "Save Our Souls" that captures it perfectly:

We think that we're superior
To every living thing
It can be lonely at the top
So we look for higher praise to sing
Won't you just say hello
We'll give you a cable show
We have weapons to intimidate
You if you look afright
Come on down and see our
Zoos and refugee camps
Ain't it worth your time

Pity our emptiness

The Gentleman Preacher

A few weeks ago a Christian pastor from a church down the block showed up at our doorstep. I wasn't home. My agnostic/atheist husband was home and he got into a short conversation with the gentleman preacher, who actually asked permission to pray for my husband. My husband said "No thank you", however, he was very moved by the man asking for his consent instead of blanket presuming and steamrolling on through. If more Christians start acting like the Gentleman Preacher of Kimberly's Neighborhood, churches will start filling to the brim and doing the good works of Jesus. I am not holding my breath for that to happen.

Non-Christians and various stripes of Twitboobers have turned to prayer because it has been revealed as a blunt battle axe that can be swung around in the china shops of social media. That is to say prayer can be weaponized as nasty Christians realized long ago. Twitboob has only recently caught on, hence Pray for Ukraine. They espouse Praying for Ukraine because it is the Latest Thing. They want carte blanche to jam the Latest Thing down collective throats with constant reassurance from experts (kind of like a Girlfriend Experience) that they are strong and wonderful. They don't care if the reassurance is fake.

Europeans are in a real pickle right now as they face the prospect of mammoth utility bills this winter while having to get scrappy when it comes to food. I think middle class Americans are more used to scrounging and seeing red rectangles on our late and unpaid utility bills. We already were deplorable Walmart, GoodWill, and Aldi shoppers back in the Obama era. Being demi-poor like me isn't so bad but you do have to get used to it. Going demi-poor or straight up poor is hard to do overnight and the higher they sit, the harder they fall. I don't give a rat's behind about my gym membership, my cable subscription, my Adobe software suite, my hundred dollar restaurant meals, my underground parking, or my museum patronage because I don't have any of those things.

There is a teeming class of people who are not ready for what they gleefully signed up for in 2020. Neither can they handle the responsibility for what they've done to Western civilization in general nor can they cope with the physical demands of poverty after quaxxing themselves and their children. The shots are in the process of establishing an underclass of handicapped, dependent, and mostly infertile adults whose families face bankruptcy or homelessness because of repeated trips to ERs and medical clinics for the rest of their lives. When they land in those ERs and clinics, they will be gaslighted that it couldn't possibly be the MRNA vaccines. Throwing money at the Ukraine is yet another mask to hide the emerging truth of what they have done to themselves and everyone else. Feel-good, "We're All in This Together" rhetoric is a favorite shield for karma-avoiders.

Pray for Ukraine is a veiled ask to support the US's current proxy war with Russia. It took me way too long in my life to understand how leaders of countries quibble for resources and dress up their resource grabs with a thick frosting of ideology. Don't pray for Ukraine. Pray for yourself and for those whom you've asked their express permission to pray for. Pray to the spirit of the land where you are and give thanks compulsively. Pray to the real gods and don't broadcast your private conversations with them; we wouldn't understand anyway.

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