The World We Were Supposed to Want
Jun. 20th, 2023 08:59 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)

The scene: a civilized neighborhood Christmas party in an upper-middle class home in the Midwestern US. The year: 1987. I distinctly remember one of the older neighborhood kids tell me his family was moving. Since his family's home was a perfectly adequate, roomy 4 bedroom, I asked why his family was moving away. His answer was because they "needed" a bigger home. Every 5-10 years they moved into a larger home after having enlarged whatever home they occupied. Their goal was ever-increasing real estate profits from ever-larger homes in a game that (for some people) does not end until they die and ostensibly pass the game pieces and board down to their children and grandchildren.
It Takes a Narrative
I often wonder how many memes it will take to grok the materialism of Millennials, the generation that claims to have rejected Boomer capitalism. Millennials often believe they are opting out of capitalism when the harsher truth is they've been cast out of elite circles and now lurk on the outsides, looking in. There is no opting out of capitalism -- though there are plenty of self-styled wokesters who preach about it while flipping their Thai hair weaves, eating salads of mostly store-bought ingredients off of Anthropologie plates, and broadcasting on TikTok. Nevertheless, the Millennial "I am a scrappy communist because I say I am" is a better narrative than the Office of Progress narrative, which is the idea that all functioning adults should be happy rotating from home cubicle to office cubicle, watching screens that tell them how to live at every opportunity while hopped up on injectable chemical concoctions.
Had my sex drive never asserted itself, I would have liked to have kept the trajectory I designed for myself at age 9: to work in an office, come home to a book-filled condominium on the second floor of a building in the town where I grew up, and to live my childless life between books, cats, and occasional solitary dinners outside my home with friends or family. I knew the exact place where I wanted to live. It was small consolation to realize I could not have afforded that condominium as a single spinster even if I had a much more lucrative job: the price of real estate was already soaring when I was in my teens and by the time I was in my late 20s, nobody with an income south of 60K could afford to live anywhere near my hometown in any sort of single family residence. By the time I was 25, it became perfectly apparent that if I wanted a condominium in such a nice place, I would have to marry a man in order for him to buy it for me, and that would have defeated the point as the whole fantasy was a lonely and solo one.
I flirted for a while with corporate jobs straight out of college. The pay I received was barely more than the babysitting gigs I had at age 14; it was laughable and pathetic. I wasn't willing to work my way up that degrading chain by trading all of my youthful energy for something that felt like a living hell. Plus the number of people able to benefit from the living hell was shrinking in the 1990s and is a great deal more diminutive now.
I Want You to Want Me
We are all supposed to want the elite Office of Progress lifestyle. You know the one: it involves driving the latest electric car, living in ever-larger homes, posting on social media, and drinking at least one Starbucks beverage a day. We are not supposed to think about how stupid it is to drive a car that is probably using electricity that originates from coal. Despite lip service given to greenwashing holidays like Earth Day, we are not supposed to consider the wastefulness of living in a big, mostly empty McMansion. As for social media, anyone who turns it off because it is boring or (GASP) does not have any presence at all on Insta, FB, Twitter, YT, etc. is considered a freak or an unfortunate. Those who reject Starbucks out of hand are just weird -- unwillingness to shell out six or more dollars for a mediocre calorie bomb of a drink is trés 1978, and not in a good way.
School
The point of public schooling in the 21st century is to neuter boys, often literally via the trans push, and condition the girls to work outside the home in the good old Office of Progress. My childhood was unhappy for one main reason: I did not sleep properly. Why could I not sleep properly despite having stable parents with no shortage of money? I was busy being conditioned to sit quietly in a desk dictating and absorbing elaborate orders. When I did not get along with other order-followers (who I was always being pitted against in academic and popularity contests) I was punished by ostracism. To think I could have been home actually learning for all those wasted years! 95% of my adult academic knowledge came from the 5% of free time when I could think unhindered on adequate sleep, far away from school. For instance, I learned most of what I know about plants from my mom and the books I used to identify common weeds from ages 13-19 during summers in Michigan. Cooking? That was learned from my mom and library books; the single Home Ec class I took in junior high was a farce. As far as English, the best way of getting me not to read a book is to put a deadline on it and mar it with a quiz or a test. Not that I was in any mood to learn while in school: I was so starved on every plane except the physical one, I wanted to kill myself. When etheric poverty is in full sway in the form of an ugly box one must sit in with other teenagers while being lectured by older inmates, there is nothing to improve the astral shield and hence nothing standing between the seedy lower astral and the developing mental sheath.
A Woman's Place is in the Home
If today's "liberated" woman was truly happy with working outside the home as a regular thing, we would not have seen so much outright sabotage designed to prolong the Panicdemic and to continue Zoom work-from-home schemes that are still going on to this day. The reason women want to stay home, including this woman, is because it is the magical formula of the woman to secure the homestead. Men were designed to hunt, to go to war, and to defend. Women were designed to make the home into a healing place where babies can grow into healthy adults and to give men a place worth defending. Without the healing influence of the home, we all feel more raw, vulnerable, exposed, and beaten by forces that are always getting at us. School is vile because it trains women to force themselves into the role of Atlas: winning bread outside the home and then having the double and triple roles of having the babies it is fed to and making it into sandwiches so everyone can have lunch. Anyone who thinks a woman can do all of these things and do them well is either smoking the strong stuff or has access to Supermom.
The consequences we all live down are all around us. Tired women who have nothing left after having to work all day end up with feral kids being raised by social media, or their husbands leave them because marriage is hard and it's twice as hard when there is nobody competent at home who can enchant the home into a protective symphony of astral, etheric, and physical shapes. Ugly environments of convenience attempt to replace craftsmanship and care, and though I am thankful for their gifts, I am also resentful that everything has to be so ugly and ignorant of etheric ebb and flow. I myself am an example of classic bad faith, caught between worlds while laboring outside the home and always schepping to make ends meet. I'm a long, long way from Buddha, renouncing my niceties and creature comforts to contemplate trees.
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Date: 2023-06-21 02:28 pm (UTC)Which is why I don't have a paying job (I cannot make myself utter the words "I don't work" or "I don't have a job"-- I just don't get paid money for it!)
But at the same time, I'm an introvert, and there are definitely times when, after being around my kids 24/7 for weeks on end, I *long* for a job. Not for the money, not for the status or the supposed fulfillment of a career. Frankly, I dream of stocking shelves on an overnight shift. No, the appeal is a regularly scheduled time to go do something alone without talking to other people, nobody needing cuddles or reassurance, no household crises that everybody looks to me to solve...
I know how much of a fantasy that is, of course. It's just that even doing the "right" thing can have its aspects of imbalance. Modern homemaking is itself deficient in many ways-- even if I'm not away at a job, all my neighbors are, so it's in an empty neighborhood. My kids don't have the options I had in the 80s: within biking distance I had two aunts, four houses where my mom trusted the adults enough to let us spend the day there, several elderly neighbors we'd drop in on (whom my mom had known since her own childhood), my friend's grandmother who always had carrot cake, and the public library and the bay were in bike-reach as well. My kids? We live in a sketchy neighborhood, and all our relatives are at least 2 hours away by car. They have *none* of that. So they're at home more, and we're obliged to put them in the car and take them elsewhere to see relatives, have a non-ghetto social existence... in order to afford a safe neighborhood where they could have more physical freedom, I'd have to go back to work.
Everything's a tradeoff.
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Date: 2023-06-21 03:24 pm (UTC)Back in the day, we had a whole network of neighbors and people who lived in town who weren't even family but who acted as side-parents. I knew every family on my block except for the psycho couple at the end of the block who shot at various animals with a pellet gun. I used to pick tiny bouquets of wildflowers and bring them to each neighbor. I think I was seven. By the late 80s, pretty much everyone had moved away and two little girls who picked flowers actually picked the cultivated flowers out of one neighbor's yard and attempted to sell them to other neighbors. They were hellions with (understandable) behavioral problems whose parents were in the midst of a terrible divorce. I feel bad for those girls: it's obvious they witnessed parents argued about money, because otherwise they would not have bothered trying to profit from selling flowers from questionable sources. And kudos to them for trying to take matters into their own hands from a young age. It's just so terribly tragic that parenting and the neighborhood network itself had so obviously disintegrated by the mid-80s. Nowadays, it's mostly helicoptered kids and lots of divorced or divorcing parents. There are a lucky few whose parents stay together for the long haul. Though in the old days, you had lots of couples who stayed together who would have been better off apart. Like you say, everything is a tradeoff!
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Date: 2023-06-21 04:00 pm (UTC)"Side-parents" :) yeah. And even so, my friends' parents were very hands-off. Barely saw them except for the occasional offer of a snack. But my own parents (rightly) trusted them not to be creeps, or to have drugs in the house, or to be watching explicit movies with kids around. Safe. That's all that was required.
I have zero neighbors I'd place in this category-- intact homes with a mom and a dad are nonexistent here. It's all single moms, kids being raised by grandparents, and houses where you can't even tell who the parents are because of the rotating merry-go-round of unfamiliar adults cycling in and out of the household. Significant number of kids with obvious behavior problems. I can't tell if this is a function of our income (we live on a single income, so we live in a single-income sort of neighborhood... but in our tax bracket, single-income homes are nearly all single-parent homes), or just the new normal. Both, I think.
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Date: 2023-06-21 10:24 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-06-22 12:14 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-06-23 12:56 am (UTC)That said, I was babysat and actually it was my beloved aunt who let me watch the worst/best movies... and here I am, all alive and well-adjusted and s**t. You've done a fine job raising them and it's good for them to be babysat (babysitted?) because it teaches them responsibility, maturity, and to behave themselves when Mom isn't watching.
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Date: 2023-06-23 02:03 am (UTC)a valueable rant, imho
Date: 2023-06-21 03:31 pm (UTC)Apropos sacred homemaking,
when may we expect your book?
Re: a valueable rant, imho
Date: 2023-06-21 10:25 pm (UTC)I wish I had been home-schooled. It wasn't even on the radar back in my day.
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Date: 2023-06-21 04:04 pm (UTC)Also interesting how women quickly went from being incubators to being "empowered" tax cows and corporate servitors. Today the former is considered to by awfully-awful oppression and the latter is totally "stunning and brave" freedom that should constantly be celebrated and praised. The whole "boss babe" (i.e. woman with masculine, aggressive personality) meme is used to prop up the latter. In reality, a man who has to deal with all sorts of BS for 8+ hours a day at work most certainly does not want to come home to more of that. Women being shamed and gaslist into adopting a competitive demeanor has created the grotesque harpy caricature we all know and not-love today.
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Date: 2023-06-21 10:33 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-06-22 03:10 pm (UTC)Regarding women still being thought of as incubators:
On the contrary, the family-rearing expectations, at least among the comfortable classes, have been melting away with each passing decade. Mainstream "progressive" PMC culture is now thoroughly anti-natalist, except among maybe the top tier. The Boomer myth of blank slate "equality" (i.e evolution miracuously stops at the neck) has become a dogma that's ruthlessly-enforced by the dominant institutions. Women are now told that they need to become like men and spent their most fertile years being miserable (so empowering!) 8+ hours a day rotting away in a cubicle and sucking up to some boss who couldn't care less about them as people. By the time they start thinking about "settling-down" and starting a family with Mr. Reliable, 95% of their eggs are gone for good.
My point is that (as JMG likes to say), the opposite of one bad idea is another bad idea. The sterile 1950s vision of the atomized nuclear family in suburbia (and the bored, pill-popping housewife) was one very bad idea. Second Wave Feminism was a reaction to that and introduced some equally bad ideas. Now, the so-called "tradcon" element on the new right aspires to return to the previous bad idea. All current-day political ideologies suffer from a failure of imagination. I just hope the inevitable "Second Religiousness" backlash, whenever it may come along, isn't nearly as terrible as the woke plague, and hopefully not led by disgruntled PMCs like Naomi Wolf.
Sorry for the rant; things are a mess right now! (understatement of the century)
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Date: 2023-06-22 05:35 pm (UTC)The Trades
Date: 2023-06-22 06:35 pm (UTC)Re: The Trades
Date: 2023-06-22 08:04 pm (UTC)Re: The Trades
Date: 2023-06-23 02:05 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-06-22 08:08 pm (UTC)On your mechanic and his aspiring apprentices, it sounds like a whole culture and support-system for apprenticeship needs to be rebuilt from the ground up. Much of the old infrastructure for that seems to have rotted away.
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Date: 2023-06-22 05:30 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-06-22 05:38 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-06-22 06:08 pm (UTC)The generation of women before that... weren't exactly slouches either. Just off the top of my head, in my great-grands' generation: two aunties who owned and ran an ice-cream parlor, one who played the organ for both the church, and for silent movies, one who ran a small hotel, one who was in charge of payroll at a military base, one career nutritionist, and one too busy running a rural homestead to have a paying job (don't ever tell a farmwife she "doesn't work"!).
So where *did* that housewife stereotype come from, exactly?
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Date: 2023-06-22 06:20 pm (UTC)I find it interesting that women who stay home or run cottage industries (home-based businesses) are still seen as lazy because they did not much else outside of raising children. As if keeping a home and raising children into adulthood wasn't hard work...
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Date: 2023-06-22 08:30 pm (UTC)Trying to keep up with the household inertia and chaos, while homeschooling (or even with just little kids not at daycare)... People seriously do not realize how much harder that job is when you are never at the house *without* the kids. It's shoveling snow in a blizzard. I *wish* I could run a cottage industry, and my hat's off to ladies who manage it.
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Date: 2023-06-23 01:03 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-06-23 02:19 am (UTC)Total polar opposite of when I'd go spend a month with my grandma in the summers. She was old and couldn't keep up, but she liked me, wasn't cranky, left me largely to my own devices (the gift of quiet and boredom!), and would show me how to do stuff if I asked-- she taught me to crochet, embroider, read a pattern, use a sewing machine, face a collar, hem a skirt, make paper dolls, cut snowflakes... all the cool stuff my mom didn't have time for. She was a lousy cook, but in all other respects, I think she had the "etheric work" thing nailed down. The house was always pleasant.
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Date: 2023-06-22 12:32 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-06-22 05:45 pm (UTC)Disagree with your assertion that the myth of the happy homemaker is only for certain sets of people. I would be happier if I could keep all of my work inside the home (notice I still want to work and I plan on working until the day I die) and that would technically make me a happy homemaker. My essay is an attempt to explain what I perceive as an etheric plane phenomenon and how it affects the planes around it: the astral and the material plane.
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Date: 2023-06-22 02:39 pm (UTC)I remember once, I was in my parents' house with a girlfriend at the time, and when we left we did a little tidying up. When my mother saw it, she said: "did Indy help you? This cleaning has a woman's touch."
Your point about the wider culture indoctrinating young women out of their natural focus on the hearth and the homestead seems very accurate to me. My social circles tend towards the hippy/alternative side of things, and there is a very disproportionate number of young women who are buying old vans, and living an itinerant lifestyle. Each to their own and all, but it seems kind of sad to me; an indicator of how fragmented our society is, how there is no hearth to welcome these young women and allow to express their biological natures, so they become adventurous vagabonds, roving around looking for new experience.
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Date: 2023-06-22 05:49 pm (UTC)"A woman's touch"... how cool that she noticed. In my upcoming book, I will make the assertion that decor is actually crucial to maintaining the energetic field of a house... it's going to be a strange book.
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Date: 2023-06-22 09:11 pm (UTC)You are right, of course, and what is especially sad is that very few of these women seem to recognize it as such, beyond maybe a vague acknowledgement of living costs. Financial factors are a massive issue, but it's not the whole story; after all, the word 'economics' stems from the root word 'oikos', or 'household'.
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Date: 2023-06-23 01:07 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-06-23 07:48 am (UTC)Terlets
Date: 2023-06-22 08:02 pm (UTC)So the sparkly toilet challenge runs apace here at the homestead. Even though I got up late to go do a farm errand with a friend of mine, I still had the moment to swish out my toilet after my morning pee. It took less than a minute.
I’ve been doing it for two weeks already and I like the ease of it all. Maybe it’s helping with my financial stickies too, I’ll be watching that spot to see how it goes.
Annette
Re: Terlets
Date: 2023-06-23 01:09 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-06-24 08:30 pm (UTC)Our apartment came with furniture. It's nice, but a bit non-descript. I got a lamp, a few cheap and cheerful throw pillows, and my daughter and I rearranged the furniture. Our home looked completely different. My daughter was stunned by how we could effect such a big change with so little.
Heloise