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Art of the Welsh gods

[cs2]

Hello Kimberly, thank you for your Ogham read regarding my work project yesterday, I really appreciate it.

I'm wondering what your thoughts are regarding paintings depicting the Welsh gods. Have you ever gotten an inkling from them during prayer as to what they might think about that?

On the AODA forums I had an artist recommended to me whose work is beautiful and respectful. I then got a No reading from Ogham regarding contacting the artist, but I suspect it was personal regarding my next paycheck, so I'm letting some time pass to make sure my income arrives on-time and smoothly. I would likely be paying the artist a commission for each piece and then she could put the paintings up for sale so others could buy prints.

This is just a feeling I've had, and it might be baseless projecting, but I am wondering whether the gods do not wish to be personified. I'd be more than willing to commission paintings of their nature-based correspondences, like Hesus being a salmon in a pool with hazel branches hanging overhead, etc.

We live in a casual Wikipedia world where people go god-surfing and sometimes treat such things quite flippantly. I'm wondering if that's the reluctance I'm getting, that maybe the gods don't want to be on the internet. Yet at the same time, there are potential believers out there who are interested in these gods and confused when they can't find much about them. Anyway, I'd be interested in hearing your thoughts on this, thank you.

Re: Art of the Welsh gods

[kimberlysteele]

From my experience, the Druid gods are more easily envisioned in a non-anthropomorphic way. Meaning, they represent themselves as the emotions one feels when immersed in a certain landscape. When I started doing the Sphere of Protection about three years ago, I envisioned the Druid gods as humanoid and quickly grew out of it in favor of the "scrying in the spirit vision" method. But if seeing them as people helps you out, by all means do it. To each their own. They're gods, so I highly doubt they will be offended if you have to see them from a human template in order to perform your devotions.

Re: Art of the Welsh gods

[(Anonymous)]

My sense is that they don't want a lot of information out there about them: they seem to prefer everyone develop a unique take on them.

Re: Art of the Welsh gods

[kimberlysteele]

I sense the same thing, for what it's worth. It's possible they don't want people to get dogmatic about them, for instance, like what happened to Jesus and Allah.

Libary

[(Anonymous)]

How is the Library coming?

Will O

Re: Libary

[kimberlysteele]

It's definitely coming along! Over the last two weeks, my Studio has gained 7 students, plus many students have decided to extend their times with me, so this has tentatively taken me out of the red and into the black for the first time in six months. This is a total reversal of fortune: only a month ago, I had to consider a scorched earth approach that would have meant giving up my commercial space in its current form and putting the library project on hold.

If the upward trend continues (please pray for me that it does) I will be able to serve out what remains of my commercial lease -- approximately one year -- in good stead, pay what I owe to my landlord, and find a new space that can comfortably house both Studio and Library. I have enough books now to populate a modest library thanks to my fellow Ecosophians and my own habit of amassing books. I believe the gods are helping me to create the library. The god's help and prayers of Ecosophians have kept my Studio alive.

Re: Libary

[(Anonymous)]

That’s great news. I direct my prayers to the Lord Jesus Christ. If it’s cool with you I can include the library in my prayers.

Will O

Re: Libary

[kimberlysteele]

That would be great, thank you!

Re: Libary

[(Anonymous)]

I have a LOT of books and not a lot of space in which to store them. What would be a good way to get in touch with you about possibly sending them your way? If you’d want them - I’m long on kids and young adult books now (phase of life) that are in great shape but no one seems to want to read - I would love for them to get a second lease on life! Even the library down here in Florida barely has any dang books anymore. I went in for books the other day and we have to check in because of COVID. They started to make me a computer pass and I said no thank you, I’m here for books - their surprise was evident!

Re: Libary

[kimberlysteele]

I would love to have them! You may send them to my Studio address. I'll be at that address at least one more year:

Kimberly Steele Studio
625 East Ogden Avenue
Naperville, IL 60563

It's crazy how pared down my local library has become. Often I'll go in looking for a classic like Steinbeck's The Grapes of Wrath or one of Aldous Huxley's novels and they don't have it!

[(Anonymous)]

I have never seen the movie Hunger Games, but
this is a vid from the producer of that movie.
It is about pedophilia.. it is disturbing but
this needs to be known.. he says to share it
so I hope that's ok.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qf4I1ADAFXY&feature=emb_logo

[(Anonymous)]

That guy is not the producer of Hunger Games.....

[kimberlysteele]

From what I was able to glean from the IMDB credits, he worked in the Transportation Department on the Hunger Games film set and someone named Emily Rice (perhaps related?) was an accountant for the film. I don't think he personally claims to have produced Hunger Games, though whoever titled the video obviously made that claim. He said "I'm a film producer" which seems to check out.

[(Anonymous)]

yes, sorry, that was how it was presented.
I have seen an interview with him since, where he explains that no he is NOT the producer, he worked WITH the producer.
That is in this video, if interested:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YeBud51beFI&feature=youtu.be
His story has gone viral.


On a different topic, this is a good
article I thought I would share.

https://libertyunyielding.com/2021/02/07/preemption-sudden-narrative-push-before-trump-senate-trial-depicts-election-rigging-as-election-fortifying/

[kimberlysteele]

My thoughts are that the Democrats and many Republicans are determined to put their own heads on pikes within the next 20 years. It's like they want to be guillotined. Well, at least if they end up losing their heads, they'll get the victim status they've lusted after all these years.

Have you seen the 12th video down on this page about adrenochrome? https://pedoempire.org/videos/

Seems like a smoking gun to me. These "abandoned" military bases ought to be investigated.

[(Anonymous)]

Hi everyone,

How do you communicate with your Higher Self? I tried to do so while meditating, but I don't think it worked.

[kimberlysteele]

They definitely like to speak via divination. For me, the "voice" has begun to pop into my head during discursive meditation, but it took a couple of years.

[(Anonymous)]

Thank you, I'll try divination! I really enjoy discursive meditation, now if only it were as widely known as the 'empty your mind' type of meditation.

[wbj]

Do you pray? If so, you can use the same techniques: the higher self isn't really a separate entity from you, but in a lot of ways it does function like one. I've prayed to my higher self many times before, and found it usually answers.

[(Anonymous)]

Thank you! I will pray to my Higher Self and see what happens.

Question

[(Anonymous)]

Have you ever had a realization during meditation that was painful - and how can you get past something you can’t control, or even affect, but now that you’ve realized it you can’t get it out of your head? You might think this sounds crazy, but I had this memory pop up during meditation but I don’t think it was from this life because I’ve never been in that situation. Like I was being ripped away, and now I’m grieving so hard but I don’t even know really why? Or for whom? But I’ve been thrown for such a loop. I haven’t meditated since (4 days). Every time I try I find myself wracked by paroxysms of grief but I don’t know why! I’m so confused. I know you have memories of past lives - do you feel leftover emotions from those lives? Or am I misplacing something from this life mentally? I welcome your insight. Thank you.

Re: Question

[kimberlysteele]

My left leg was amputated in a previous life and the memory is so awful/painful, I cannot recall what life it was from. I also had a past life where there was a hideously depraved act of animal abuse. This memory was so traumatic, it took several days to get over the shock of it and it still saddens me whenever I think about it. I also starved to death twice, one time when I was still a child, from what I can piece together. At least from what I can tell, it is perfectly normal to go through what you are going through. Past life memories can be quite a psychological overload.

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[(Anonymous)]

How many former lives can you remember? Are the memories from them just like normal memories or do they differ in some ways?

Thanks

Re: Question

[kimberlysteele]

I remember about seven past lives at this point. One thing I'll suggest: always write down your past life memories in a journal because when you re-read the journal, it can jog other memories, for instance, the ones that come in dreams.

My most recent past life was Esther. She was born in Vermont sometime in the 1880s. She was a schoolteacher for a while. She lost her only children, two sons, in World War I when they went off to fight in Europe. She never recovered. She was so heartbroken and bitter about it, it was one of the driving reasons I didn't have children in this lifetime. Her first husband passed away and then she married a very rich man. I have clear memories of her as an older woman when she went on cruises. She died in 1964 of natural causes.

There was a life in Victorian England where I was an abusive husband.

There is a life sandwiched between the more modern ones (though I am not sure when) where I starved to death. I was in Eastern Europe and I was around 12 years old. I'm not sure of the name in that case.

Some time before that was Peter (or some derivative of Peter) who was a sailor. He was Portuguese. He was very short, ugly, and from a poor family. He ended up on a doomed ship, too small and badly made to do its intended job. Peter had a nice singing voice and knew a lot of sea chanteys. He was raised Catholic but he died an atheist thanks to that ocean trip. He was shipwrecked and he died at sea, also starved to death.

Some time before that was Robert. Robert was from Italy and was a troubadour/traveling musician. I have quite a few clear memories of his life and more details than any other of my past lives. Robert was a Casanova. He was extremely talented, but he was also a narcissist and this caused a great deal of trouble.

There was a lifetime before Robert where I was mentally handicapped and my loving father taught me how to sing. It is his training I still carry with me. He is the reason why that seed of talent grew. Once again, I was male.

There was a lifetime as a Scottish laird who was, for all intents and purposes, a serial killer. This definitely had repercussions through the other lives.

Re: Question

[(Anonymous)]

Thank you so much for this. I don’t feel so alone. I guess I just have to get through it - I go out in this tiny patch of woods behind my house to do my daily SOP, divination, meditation trio, but yesterday I was on all fours on the ground just grieving - crying like I would never be consoled. I have this flash of hands reaching towards me and me being pulled away, but that’s all I’ve got. I’ve had sadness in this life, I’ve lost family etc. but never have I grieved like this. It’s really tough but I suppose I just have to keep feeling it until it passes - it is hard because most people don’t understand and here I am walking around like my husband just died but everything in my life is “fine” so what’s wrong with you?!

Re: Question

[kimberlysteele]

You're welcome, I'm truly glad I could help. I often cry during the SoP. It releases pent up emotions. I call it "the human waterworks" when it happens. Our culture has a great deal to answer for in its brutal repression of normal human emotions, especially grief. This is true no matter what race or creed you are from nowadays (it's actually a bit worse among Asians from what I have noticed). Dealing with this current round of grief as an honest broker will give you newfound empathy when others need it from you in the future. When you do the Spirit below gate, you might try what I do. I kneel down and touch the ground with my hands and then bring my hands up to my bare belly. I then envision Mama Earth's current being channeled into my gut, which seems to be an odd sort of "fun" for the creatures of the Spirit Below and healing for me.

Re: Question

[(Anonymous)]

I will try it! I’m still REALLY new to all this, to be honest, and writing that comment was like lancing a boil. I was able to meditate again yesterday. Just knowing this is normal was huge. I’m still working on the first branch of the Mabinogion and I feel like I’ll never complete it - I could meditate on this for the rest of my life and not get everything from it! Before I found this community via JMG’s Ecosophia blog, I would occasionally do yoga and I would often cry during certain poses. I think that for me, yoga also releases emotions. I’ve always been good at stuffing it all down in a box so I don’t make others uncomfortable (perish the thought!) until it all bursts out of me at once and I forcefully spray my feelings all over whomever happens to be nearest (and not often in a way that makes sense to anyone, least of all myself). I hope this process of spiritual awakening will give me the tools to be aware enough of my own psyche that I can benefit from the release process. But those hands I see, and the feeling of loss, is not for the people in this life. I went through a couple of days of feeling lost, like these are not my people, where am I? But that has resolved, and my meditation was fruitful yesterday. You have helped me tremendously, thank you so very much!

Re: Question

[kimberlysteele]

I feel like I could meditate on a single Tarot card for the rest of my life and not absorb all of its wisdom... several lifetimes if the card in question was a trump! When I was 28, I went to a random yoga class and afterwards I was crying. Very embarrassing at the time for me as I had no idea about energies or their release. I was still atheist and I dismissed it all as woo despite being extremely familiar with lucid dreaming and astral travel at the time.

True confessions: I meditate myself to sleep. I do a normal discursive meditation during the day and I actually get a bit grumpy if I don't have the time to do it. At night, when I have to wake up to pee/attend to my cat's needs/whatever and can't get back to sleep right away, I'll "go deep" into a discursive meditation, usually about one or more trees of the Ogham. Sure as heck beats worrying about finances! I usually drop off to sleep without getting to a second tree, however, when I have managed to meditate thoroughly because I could NOT fall back to sleep, I have wound up with some of my most productive meditations.

Re: Question

[kimberlysteele]

The memories most often are released during discursive meditation. A voice from the past will start talking to me and they will say things that spur memories. It's like talking to a character from a book.

Re: Question

[wbj]

I went through something similar: my last life was a hippie who killed herself in 1984 once it was clear that the western world was going to throw away our future and all of our claimed ideals for a little bit longer with wretched excess. It took me months to fully incorporate this, and a large part of it was going through the grief: at what my last life truly believed could have been, and dealing with how easily it had been thrown away. This also meant I had to deal with plenty of other things in the here and now.

So I know what you're going through, and the best advice I can give is to work through the process. It stings, it hurts, but in the end, it will get better. Deal with it, and it will be healing. Don't try to force it though: I'm still not sure of all the details of my last life's experience in the 1980s. It'll take years to get it, but as long as you don't push it, it'll never be more than you can handle.

Re: Question

[(Anonymous)]

After I did my SOP (sobbing all the while) I pulled my daily tarot card (I feel a strong connection to the tarot) and it was Ace of Cups. In my mind, I heard clear as day, “ this is the beginning of learning to love yourself.” How all this fits together I have no idea, but I’m glad to hear that if I don’t force it, it hopefully won’t break me. Thank you for this.

Re: Question

[wbj]

First, you have my utmost sympathy and understanding: I've been there too. Just remember: your higher self is guiding you. As long as you trust the process and don't force it, you will never remember anything you aren't ready for. This does not mean it will be easy: if you've had a difficult past, and the fact you have so much grief coming out says you probably did, you almost certainly will need to set aside time to deal with it as it comes up.

My main advice for you is simply to be gentle with yourself. If you need to cut back on your spiritual practices, then do so. If meditation is too painful for the time being, embrace that fact: take the freed up time and do other things. I did exactly that when my first past life memory came up: I needed to deal with that before I could keep going with spiritual practices. It proved remarkably healing. Painful, but healing: quite often these emotions bleed over from life to life: in my case, seeing where the profound anger and sense of loss I had always felt came from meant I could deal with it far better than I could before.

The other thing, rereading your comment, is that it sounds like you're not sure what the memory is yet. I find that often times the emotion rises first, before the memories. My last life suicide started surfacing first when I was walking home from a friend's house, saw some cars rushing past, and felt the profound urge to just start sobbing. It wasn't until a few days later the memory itself surfaced.

I hope this helps.

Re: Question

[(Anonymous)]

This helps enormously. I was feeling quite guilty about not being able to meditate, like I was failing in my Druid course of study. Sometimes it’s like we need the help of others to be gentle with ourselves! And just writing that made me understand a bit about my Ace of Cups pull... hm.

The emotions are definitely coming out first - the only scrap of a memory I have feels like I am horizontal (like being carried away bodily) and so many hands are reaching for me - there’s no auditory component, but I just know they are wailing and keening somehow. I don’t know if I died before I got the chance to process my human grief of losing those people or what, but your comments about your experience makes me feel so much less alone. Just knowing that other people have gone through this too makes it better!

Even just writing that very first comment was like releasing pressure on my psyche. I don’t have many people around me that I consider “simpatico” - my family and friends consider my Druidry something that is nice, but a tinge weird, and oh by the way you’re still praying to Jesus, right? (I am, but probably not the way they think). I feel a strong connection to the Master Jesus as described in the Cosmic Doctrine but no connection whatsoever to the concept of the Christ. A perhaps overly granular distinction to some, but in my mind, the Christ is the egregor created by modern Christianity while the Master Jesus I can relate to on a personal level.

Does anyone have any advice for finding “their” gods, the ones that speak to your soul? I have a strange patchwork so far that makes no sense even to me (Jesus and Lakshmi, what? Haha) but I’ve always struggled hard with faith. I read something by JMG that makes me wonder if it’s generational for people my age (born in ‘82) because our outer planet placements are not conducive to faith. Maybe it was our Neptune in Sag? Can’t recall, but I believe it!

Re: Question

[kimberlysteele]

I feel the a connection to Master Jesus too. From my experience, he is not even in the same ballpark as the being worshipped by most Christian churches. For one, when I have encountered him, there is no feeling of decrepit, stale, mouldering desperation. I am not a fan of Christian churches because the second I walk in (or encounter an average, run-of-the-mill Christian) there it is, that desperate feeling, nearly as palpable as a fart.

Opening oneself to gods seems to involve one big barrier: the questioning and taming of one's own ego and the human tendency to dramatize/self-aggrandize our own lives. Methylethyl brought it home a week or two ago and likened it to the Christian concept of vainglory. Discursive meditation is absolutely merciless when it comes to the decimation of vainglorious concepts about ourselves, I think, which is why it is so necessary. Modern people, so far removed from moving with the flows of nature, absolutely love to vainglorify themselves. To question their warped view of their own struggle is the Great Satan. Though many modern people believe they work on themselves via time spent on the psychologist's/counselor's Kleenex-supplied reclining couch, it's the blind leading the blind.

Psychologists these days earn the big bucks telling the fragile what they want to hear, and their favorite thing to hear is that they are oppressed and abused. The truth is more complicated: sure, there is oppression and abuse to reconcile, but the person using the expensive box of facial tissues is also an oppressor and abuser. Of whom?

Of those who cannot afford to sit in a $200+ per hour psychiatrist's office bemoaning their privileged circumstances. Taking the for-profit part of psychology and psychiatry would help -- meaning if psych advice-givers were to become as poor as Jesus in his day, that would certainly help to separate the wheat from the chaff. But that would involve divorcing psychiatry/
psychology from the for-profit pharmaceutical industry, and in Midwestern parlance, that ain't never gonna happen.

Re: Question

[(Anonymous)]

Your words speak to my heart.

[(Anonymous)]

I have just found this vid.

On the last open post I had posted a vid
called "Last Flag Standing".

This one is about that, and it is a very good
explanation, and further information.

I thought I would share it, I think ppl need
to know about it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oAYGzspSekY&feature=emb_title

I'm so late on this open post but I was reflecting

[houseofmirrors]

I was browsing Gab the other day and encountered an occult group in which someone was asking about starting down the path of magic, and he received a response from a clearly race focused Norse heathen about needing to ignore almost everything out there about the occult as almost all of the most widely available materials are related to or inspired from Abrahamic religions which would be no-good for the inqirer.

Putting aside the race focus, when I examine this line of reasoning in re: Norse pantheon and magic I keep coming back to a question that I ask frequently of other more mainstream religions. I'll lay it out for a few of them.

* If there were such power in the Norse pantheon, why did it fall so easily to Christendom? Why do you think it would have any power to overthrow any of the Abrahamic monotheisms today or in the future? The last time anyone even tried reviving it on a national level in 1940s Germany, it didn't even help them in their conflict. Why then would this pantheon help you now when it seems that they don't have a great track record of helping their adherents in the past?

* I hear Christians lament that only with the strength of Christianity can Europe and the USA hold off the encroachment of radical Islam, but that awful secularism and Atheism has weakened Christianity too much to offer protection. But I have to ask, if Christianity and its God had no defense for secular humanism and Atheism then why in the world would it be able to stand against Islam? Indeed Islam has spent over a thousand years running completely roughshod all over Christian lands and very little of it outside of Iberia has been reclaimed. Why then would you not assume that secularism and Atheism might also not weaken Islam just the same as Christianity?

In both of these situations you have people who seem determined to hold onto something that, if I look at it from a large perspective, have no power to protect them in the way they think it should and no power to effect the change they wish it could. Here's my own disclosure : I have a fondness for many mythologies and religions, including Norse mythology and also the figure of Jesus Christ, for different reasons. But where exactly does the power in each lie?

As an aside, I can't help but note two more things. Odin doesn't and as far as I know never has guaranteed your side's victory. He only promises to collect the bravest and best warriors and will claim them when he chooses to. Likewise nobody should come away from reading The Bible believing that God or Jesus promises to defeat all enemies in this world during your lifetime, and it doesn't even seem to me that there is even a promise that a pious people led by pious leaders would have any particular earthy protection imparted on them.

Re: I'm so late on this open post but I was reflecting

[kimberlysteele]

Just a casual observation -- Atheist values (or the lack thereof) are undermining Islam as we speak, which is why Islam hates the West so much. Atheism is far more of a threat to Islam than Christianity.