kimberlysteele | For Shame

The Professional Managerial Class is desperately trying to keep their Panicdemic and all of its accompanying shutdowns alive. Recently, the mainstream media announced a new 70% more deadly strain of Coronavirus was on the prowl, prompting a new round of closures and cancellations that will shove more tiers of the former middle class into destitution. And for what? Covid kills .03 percent or less for those under the age of 60, so increasing the amount of deaths to a whopping half a percent via a "70% more deadly" strain doesn't exactly make it formidable.

The New Useless Eaters

To protect a sliver of the elderly via dubious methods of solitary confinement in nursing homes and hospitals (a.k.a. forcing them to die alone because the State has clandestinely labelled them as Useless Eaters), the government has collapsed the world economy, driving millions into poverty and causing third world starvation. Back in the first world, suicide and domestic abuse statistics are skyrocketing, crime in the cities is ballooning, businesses like mine are folding, and unemployment is off the charts. The only people who are still doing well are the Professional Managerial Class and their one percent rulers, smugly virtue signaling from on high. They are, for now, still making plenty of money, happily sitting at home as their children muddle through online lessons at school, some more proficiently than others. Jeff Bezos is nearly a trillionaire. In Wuhan, the economy has never been better and they’re partying mask-free like it’s 1999. Nothing to see here, folks, keep moving.

Psychotic Break

Despite a fortune seemingly cemented in place that heavily indicates a few more years of a communist Chinese feeding frenzy disguised as monarchy, the Professional Managerial Class is in the midst of a psychotic break. They are the spoiled children that got everything they wanted for Christmas and then found that none of those toys filled the gaping pit of emptiness inside. They were mentally ill to begin with (I’m not supposed to use that terminology according to the Social Justice movement, because I could hurt the feelings of schizophrenics) and that mental illness is worsening by the hour. The preferred leftist outcome of the 2020 American presidential election was supposed to heal all wounds — Facebook and Twitter still ring with calls for unity while spewing vitriol at anyone who disagrees with shutdowns and masks or is of the wrong skin color — but it is clear to see the wounds are still there, itching and seeping under a thin bandage. The PMC acts no saner than it did in 2016 when the Orange Man played salvage shop and began to drain the swamp. Now, with Orange Man apparently vanquished, the Left is doing what it does best: eating its own. The mainstream media does what it can to stick fingers in the dam of evidence against its drooling, senile, child molesting President Elect, but there’s only so much you can do on a slow news day. The facts on the ground are that the President Elect is easy to loathe, and since the mainstream media has pushed nothing but loathing for the last five years, old patterns die hard. Trump was the goose that laid the Cheeto-colored eggs and he’s no longer laying. Of course all eyes now turn from him to the pathetic travesty about to take the Iron Throne.

Enter Shame

The Professional Managerial Class and its defender aspirants marinated in pure hatred for the last five years and they now hilariously want to skip away to a unicorn fart world of love, light, and non-TERF BIPOC feminism where we can pretend it never happened. If we only accept the Great Reset, coerced inoculations for an impotent nothingburger flu, we can all be happy and the Progressive flying car utopia will arrive on schedule. The PMC have yet to realize you cannot eat, live, and breathe hatred and then turn tail when the consequences of being hateful are plopped on your doorstep. That’s why they’re so triggered when I say the word “shame.”

The PMC have a problem with shame, whether they choose to acknowledge it or not. I know this because I was born and raised as a PMC. I know how they operate underneath the hood.

How Freaking Double Dog Dare You!

The Greta Thunberg phenomenon is meant to shame us all into accepting the young scold's warped vision of green utopia. Thunberg, in her ocean-sailing, vegan convenience food eating, autistic naïveté said "How Dare You!" without the faintest understanding of her own hypocrisy. The trouble with shame is that it cannot be effectively dealt by those who do not live as they preach. Nearly starving yourself to death at age ten because you are a spoiled brat is not the same thing as the ten year old who picks up trash in the forest preserve because he wants to inspire others to conserve its beauty and majesty. If the trash collector kid talks about conservation, I'm willing to listen. If a rich kid who accepted a "free" Tesla who played hooky from school and made her mother quit a once-in-several-lifetimes career of professional opera singing because of whatever piss was infecting her cornflakes that week, I am not inclined to lend such a person my ears.

The Burden and Karma of Responsibility

On one of JMG’s blogs, I had a Covid fearmonger trying to go around with me because I danced around the idea of the s word that rhymes with blame. Her fixation was on the idea of responsibility, how I had better not consider her responsible if I infected grandma with COVID by not self-isolating and wearing a mask until my own natural death. She (or he) displayed a transparent yearning for me to feel shame for being wrongity-wrong, which I would of course feel when my loved ones caught COVID and died horrible failed double lung transplant related deaths. I found this interesting because of the shadow being projected.

The thing is, the PMC and all of the fearmongers who still encourage lockdowns and masks are directly responsible for the consequences of the lockdowns. The reason I have not played nicely with lockdowns and masks from the beginning is because I do not want the karma of those who have blindly followed orders all this time. My ill-wisher is already responsible for the death of 11 year old Adan Llanos, who shot himself during a virtual school session. She is responsible for the terror of my elderly neighbor, a kind old man who died surrounded by strangers in a hospital bed a few weeks ago instead of his wife and grown children. She is responsible for the droves of addicts who fell back into addiction, given nothing but idle time and no support groups. She is responsible for the small towns that lost their only profitable company because of lack of demand and all of the families thrown into poverty as a result. She is responsible for a billion missed rites of passage: weddings, proms, funerals, mitzvahs, quinceaneras, graduations, first kisses. She is responsible for her own cowardly escapism into the Petit Trianon of Netflix and takeout food while others literally starved. I believe she will pay for it someday, though it won’t be up to deplorable like me to punish her. Justice for her is up to the gods and I am not privy to viewing their schedules in advance.

Meanwhile, she is a septic tank of PMC mindlessness, a condition I wouldn’t wish on anyone because I used to live there and it sucks. She can only pretend to feel sorry for the disenfranchised because THAT IS HOW SHE IS SUPPOSED TO FEEL. If she were just to admit she doesn’t care because it doesn’t affect her personally (not my circus, not my monkeys) it would make her into a monster. This is why she and her ilk are so quick to accuse anyone suffering from the lockdowns as a grandma-killer: projecting the monstrous shadow. If she were to admit she disliked the idea of my elderly neighbor dying alone and abandoned but also admitted she wasn’t willing to lift a finger to help if it meant sacrificing her own privileges, it would make her guilty. Her guilt might cause her to feel shame.

I know how the PMC mind races at night. I know how full it is of media tidbits, popular jargon, and peccadilloes. In the current climate of fear porn, soon to be declassé Trump Derangement Syndrome, and cognitive dissonance, it’s a thousand times worse than when I called myself a PMC. The PMC are getting plenty of rest these days but they still can’t sleep. When your imagination has been polluted and you are in complete and denial about the ways in which it is polluted, that pollution still must discharge in various ways. Trump was the outlet/target for the steady stream of PMC foulness in the US. Now the sewer has backed up, hence psychotic break, descent into depression, alcoholism, drugs, TikTok, online gaming and Netflix binges.

You Watching Me Watching Me

The PMC woman was, like me, trained to be vain and to simultaneously deny that vanity as a sin. She is always picturing herself from an outsider’s view. We women are cultivated to view ourselves remotely from birth so that we can better compete with other women. The urge to compete is the urge to consume. Grasping why Madison Avenue would want us this way should be obvious.

Postmodern Original Sin

Rich women are saddled with this self-viewing compulsion in the extreme. Being born rich means you will constantly percolate set ideas in your pretty head: that you don’t actually have the right to exist, that you are ugly, that you’re a parasite, a hustler, and a grifter because of the privileges you enjoy. The Korean film about class warfare, Parasite, comes to mind: we are never explicitly told if the real parasites are the rich or the poor.

The more privileges you enjoy, the more shame and guilt you must feel. In order to consume more product to ostensibly better yourself, you are made to feel guilty and worthless, especially while young. Women have different reactions to being conditioned this way; most don’t think about it for one second and would blink at you stupidly if you pointed it out. For some, there is extreme dieting and dysmorphia, starving oneself to become perfect, beautiful, and therefore worthy of your status. For others, angrily inventing a list of oppressions to become a professional victim assuages the feeling of guilt. Some become party girls, attempting to have fun while becoming human tragedies of addiction and codependence. Rarely do they strike at the root, which is of course the way they were conditioned to (not) think.

There are workarounds, of course, but the fearmongering PMC is not willing to look at them at this point. One would be taking a hard look at the toxicity of an exceedingly comfortable life. Another would be admitting that the economic prognosis of living standards for one’s grandchildren is going to be bleak, especially if said grandchildren are under the age of ten. To truly deal with their shame hangups, the PMC would first have to admit that shame is playing a role and second stop projecting the shadow upon others in the form of blame and finger pointing. Mostly I see the PMC clinging onto the privilege raft down the DeNile River until it finally throws them off. They will only be dragged from Versailles kicking and screaming.

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kimberlysteele

Covidians, like usual, are pretending to give a crap about "people of color". I saw one (apparently) Latina woman who complained about being called a communist because she was voting for what she considered empathetic causes. I pointed out that the reaction to the disease has been extremely punishing for the working and lower classes and that her communism lite was responsible.

I think some of them have actually convinced themselves that nurses are lucky to be first in line for the vaccine.... they are that brainwashed.

From: (Anonymous)

Here in Canada I'm watching with fascination as people are insisting vaccinations need to made mandatory for work. When someone pointed out this would hurt the working class, because the upper classes could work from home, the response was "Well, that's why I said it needs to be mandatory for employment, not being at work!"

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kimberlysteele

I can't say I'll be super upset if the upper classes who have been sitting at home (when not virtue signaling at the Big Box store and shaming people who want to keep their businesses open online) get theirs. Comeuppance at this point could take any one of a zillion forms: losing their cushy jobs because their own industries without the middle and lower classes being able to make a living, a Great Depression, or crime infestation making its mark upon their neighborhoods via BLM and Antifa thugs who after all have not stopped rioting or creating "autonomous zones".

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houseofmirrors

I think some of them have actually convinced themselves that nurses are lucky to be first in line for the vaccine.... they are that brainwashed.

Which leads to a whole other level of cognitive dissonance when they have to answer the question "why are so many front line workers refusing to take the shot themselves?"

From: (Anonymous)

"Because they are uneducated morons" is the usual way they handle this. It's absolutely fascinating to watch it play out now that I've bailed on the kind of life the Middles Classes live....

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kimberlysteele

It's funny that "education" is their panacea. As if advanced degrees were the balm that heals all wounds. Reminds me of the white vegans who tried to be edgelords with the curse-a-thon cookbook, Thug Kitchen. Their fellow leftists inevitably turned on them, forcing the couple into a self-hating, cringey mea culpa for appropriating Ebonics: https://thetakeout.com/thug-kitchen-cookbook-authors-announce-name-change-1844036965

From: (Anonymous)

The thing which made me bail was realizing my higher "education" was teaching me all the wrong skills to actually learn anything: skim, don't read; pay attention to the speaker, not the message; ignore any point you don't instantly understand, and assume everyone else will do the same; etc.

So their cure is in fact a large part of the disease.....

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kimberlysteele

What's odd about my music degree is it ended up being practical, far more so than people I knew who got degrees in business management or communications. You're right though, we weren't taught much of anything. I went to college nearly 30 years ago and it was a racket back then.

From: (Anonymous)

I had to go well past that for it (I was getting my PhD before I quit); I'm quite confident the stress is part of the process of making sure it never sinks in exactly what you're learning....

From: (Anonymous)

My mother is already informing us we will be getting the shot as soon as it is available. Not asking, telling; and freaking out that it'll still take too long. A lot of them really do believe this is essential....

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kimberlysteele

Yikes. I hope she doesn't end up having an adverse reaction. The side effects of the vaccine are terrifying. Like the old SARS vaccine, narcolepsy is a possibility. And severe diabetes, like the pancreas shuts down type.

From: (Anonymous)

I hope she doesn't get one either; I also hope no one else in my family does. I plan to be gone and cutting ties to them long before this becomes an issue....

From:

kimberlysteele

My husband and I have had to cut ties with some members of his family. Their toxicity was just too much. It's unfortunate.

From: (Anonymous)

It is, but such is life sometimes.

From: (Anonymous)

There are some members of my family I'd like to keep in touch with; sadly this would mean keeping in touch with my mother, and she's far to toxic. I've had to make plans to cut them all off instead.

She has outright stated she feels that as our mother she has the right to be in our lives no matter what, and I've never seen anyone in our family succeed in standing up to her. So if anyone in the family has my contact information, she'd get it.

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kimberlysteele

She seems like a real piece of work! Yeah, I'd get away from her too. I would do a cut and clear spell. Personally, I have had to do a cut and clear on a person in this lifetime. In my case, I had to do two different spells: one where I threw a jar into the river with the person's image on it and one where I burned the image in a bowl and buried the ashes. It worked, the person isn't trying to contact me, but I did have to tell them off as well. Essentially there were three prongs to the banishing: water magic, fire magic, and a plain verbal send off. Luckily they weren't a close relative though!

From: (Anonymous)

My plan right now is to move to another city to get away from her. That, a cut and clear spell, and adding "any link to my family" or words to that effect to my daily banishing ought to be enough. The real issue is that if you make any decision she doesn't like, she will "try to help" by rehashing everything at least once a week. And then throw a fit if you say something like "We've already talked about this."

This more or less makes it impossible to do anything she doesn't like; and sadly this includes a huge amount of my life. Of course, I could keep it all secret, and a lot of my hobbies are actually secret from my family; but at a certain point you don't have anything left to talk about. Plus some of my decisions, such as going without a cell phone, can't be hidden. And she is one of the Truest Believers in Progress I have ever known...

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kimberlysteele

I had a friend once whose mother was like that: a meddler. She helped him buy a condominium a few years ago and often barges in there and cleans it without his permission. He is an autistic adult, so when she does this, it leaves him in tatters: angry, hurt, violated. If I were him, I would change the locks.

They love the Progress narrative because it is their religion. It tells them they are upright and moral and soothes their anxiety about being privileged and ungrateful.

Yeah, a big chunk of the reason my husband and I had to distance ourselves from parts of his family (not all of them) was because we have nothing in common. Some people on his side were very religious and their whole lives revolved around worshipping death and complaining about how poor they were. The drama with them had no end, so we ended it.

From: (Anonymous)

If she is anything like my mother, changing the locks would just trigger catastrophic meltdowns. As long as she knows where I live, she'll keep at it. That's why I'm moving to another city: there is no way to set boundaries, not with someone who refuses to ever let anything go...

As for ending drama, I'm looking forward to having much less in my life. When I leave, I'll probably cut tons of ties and start fresh. I grew up upper middle class, and a lot of people I'm in touch with would not be on my list anymore, but simply can't accept that. Moving is drastic, but it is the only way I can see to get all of them.

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kimberlysteele

Not once have my parents had a meltdown -- EVER. Even when they had good reason to do so. that's what I find so unappealing about some of my friends' parents. They never managed fully to live as adults.

I don't have any salary class friends left from the old days. They are just too toxic. One is so consumed with Trump Derangement, there is no being friends with him any more. He doesn't live in the US, yet everything bad that happens here is all Trump's fault.

From: (Anonymous)

I am one hundred percent sure that the fact that all of my siblings, and myself if I'm being honest, are nonfunctional adults despite being in our 20s is because our mother kept complete control of our lives, and viciously attacks anyone in our family who tries to make our lives functional. Frankly, I'm just ready to be done with her....

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kimberlysteele

Yes, and that's the sort of person who tries to lord money over you. Like "You'll be POOR unless you do what I say, and being POOR is a fate worse than death!!"

Um, no it's not.

From: (Anonymous)

The funny thing is that she used finances to control us. The kind of life we were used to requires massive sums of money; and she refused to allow us part time jobs for years. So you nailed it!

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kimberlysteele

Sounds a bit like my autistic friend's mother. She attempts to use money to keep him on a short leash. His siblings moved to other countries to make families and lives. Though they weren't dealing with someone on the control-freak level of your mom, I think it is self-evident why they moved far, far away.

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methylethyl

I've heard it has a high rate of Guillain-Barre and Bell's Palsy, as well. My husband is in health care and I'm afraid he will have to get it. I hope he's far enough back in the line to start seeing the results, before he rolls up his sleeve for it. I'm not letting it anywhere near me or my kids.

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kimberlysteele

Me neither... I've already taken my stance. I'll die before letting them inject me with that garbage. If I had children and they tried to inject, I would be taking many of them with me as payment for attempting to assault my babies.

From: (Anonymous)

The funny thing is the Bell's Palsy is a known effect; it's one of the ones even the senile media will agree with is happening. I'm quite worried about what the other effects they aren't talking about will be....

From: (Anonymous)

Do you have sources for those claims? I haven't looked into it at all myself, since I wasn't planning to get it, but either of those on a major scale would be a nightmare....

From:

kimberlysteele

This is from the Flulaval warning label. So yes, what this means is that by getting the regular "free" flu shot, there is a risk of Guillian Barre syndrome:

https://gsksource.com/pharma/content/dam/GlaxoSmithKline/US/en/Prescribing_Information/Flulaval_Quadrivalent/pdf/FLULAVAL-QUADRIVALENT.PDF

This is from the Pfizer Covid vaccine:

https://www.fda.gov/media/144414/download

Right now, the COVID vaccine hasn't been tested enough or for long enough to know whether it causes lasting damage. What we do know is there is a risk of severe allergic reaction and sustained immune dysfunction from flu vaccines. The SARS vaccine caused narcolepsy. Back in the days of the SARS epidemic, some front line workers in Britain were cajoled/tricked into getting the vaccine and some of them became narcoleptic as a result. This means they can never hold down a job or drive again. Narcolepsy is a living hell. I'm sure if they had known the risk, they would have opted out of taking the SARS vaccine.

Edited Date: 2020-12-30 07:59 pm (UTC)