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Hi Everyone, feel free to comment on anything and everything... but please refrain from curse words. Thank you.

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In JMG's most recent Ecosophia.net Open Post, Miow wrote:

michael Martin #120 wow that has given me so much to think about. I’m doing the OSA journalling exercises and it’s opening a vipers’ nest I had buried very deep for my entire adult life. Long story short, as a child my mother was emotionally abusive to me, there was a large part of my childhood where she actively disliked me. I forgave her many times over as I realised she was also damaged and at the same time could be loving, the usual paradox. However, I think she is/was also unwittingly a witch. One example: Once when I was in primary school, we were travelling to see my grandparents, my mother’s mother. We were very poor at the time and it was a long journey. Dad scraped together his last pennies to make it happen, we were all desperate to see our beloved gran. En route we got pulled over for my dad was speeding, albeit not by much. My mother cried, begged the cop not to fine us, told him how desperately broke we were, how long she hasn’t seen her mum. No dice. Cop was getting off on his power trip and fined the bwjesus out of my poor dad. My mum then cursed the cop, telling him to his face ‘may you die’. And guess what, not long after, we heard he’d been killed in a crash.
This was but one example, the worst, but one out of many. Nobody, but nobody, messed with my mum, she was that strong-willed. My mum was devastated with guilt after the cop’s death, in her mind there was no doubt about the cause of his death being her curse. She also *always* got a visit in her dreams from a cousin who’d committed suicide just before anyone in the family died. She wasn’t a practising witch, in fact, she would be very angry if anyone said she was. Come to think of it, a guaranteed way to trigger a massive meltdown would be whenever my dad would joke that she was a witch…which he did whenever one of her casually flung curses hit its target. Quelle surprise!
Looking back now, while I am in the process of shedding some of my ignorance, the effect of her very strong will, combined with focused searing anger means that, if I understand how magic works, she actually practised it even though she did not fully know/acknowledge what she was doing? (FWIW: yes, she is covered in strawberry jam. Epic blowback.)

Which comes to the question I want to ask now. Is it possible my own mother inadvertently cursed me? It would explain so much. And if so, does she need to acknowledge it for the curse to be lifted? I have no doubt at all her feelings toward me now are purely love. I am also wondering whether the usual basic protective rituals and advice in this blog’s FAQ are enough to rid me of something I now think may have clouded my entire adult life? If Kimberly is reading this, I would be very interested in your advice specifically.

I replied:

miow I think it is highly likely your mother cursed you and most likely anyone who had the misfortune of knowing her during that phase of her life. A curse (which comes from the Latin root “cursus” or course, such as a daily liturgy) is a cycle or feedback loop imposed on the target as a way of punishing them every time they engage in a specific behavior. Most people’s curses don’t work and immediately get recycled as blowback, like one wannabe witch I used to be friends with who tried to hex a public figure and apparently ended up giving her husband bone cancer. Your mom, for better or for worse, did a public service by stopping the power-tripping cop from giving out frivolous, trumped up tickets to people of modest means. As long as she truly has done a thorough “I don’t do that anymore” as far as her own cursing habits, she should not feel bad that she assisted the Universe in taking him out. Her karma will avenge that man’s death properly and in due time, just as my karma will bring my horrific misdeeds back to me, but how and when is not for any human to know, including your mom.

As far as you are concerned, your mother’s curses cannot go back into Pandora’s box. They are what they are. For you, I think the trick is to look at your life and only amplify the blessings instead of the curses. You can do this by not complaining. Meaning, no excessive whining about lack of money, health ailments, how bad someone was to you, etc. Go ahead and acknowledge those struggles, especially in private, but don’t dwell unless it is in serious, silent discursive meditation. Every day, and nearly at every moment, if you find something or someone to be grateful for, your compulsive gratitude will go a long way in defeating and repelling curses laid upon you by your mom or anyone else.