Growing up, I developed a social anxiety and a reservedness based on being bullied by other children. Over the years I have done a lot to calm that anxiety and for several years felt as though I'd made a good run at recovery.
However, the era of cancel mobs and struggle sessions, of social exile and reputation assassination has brought this anxiety back such that I feel once again socially crippled. Particularly tough given that I moved to a left coast city in the early 2000s before things went totally insane and have been forced to watch my new home become even more fundamentalist and more vindictive than the bible belt I left behind. All the more troubling given the attachment to career success I attained far beyond what I was ever raised to believe I could obtain.
I still have no idea how I'm supposed to resolve this issue, given the combination of this new culture as well as belonging to all of the inborn identity groups that one is rewarded to mistreat and discriminate against in modern society.
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Date: 2022-10-05 07:52 pm (UTC)However, the era of cancel mobs and struggle sessions, of social exile and reputation assassination has brought this anxiety back such that I feel once again socially crippled. Particularly tough given that I moved to a left coast city in the early 2000s before things went totally insane and have been forced to watch my new home become even more fundamentalist and more vindictive than the bible belt I left behind. All the more troubling given the attachment to career success I attained far beyond what I was ever raised to believe I could obtain.
I still have no idea how I'm supposed to resolve this issue, given the combination of this new culture as well as belonging to all of the inborn identity groups that one is rewarded to mistreat and discriminate against in modern society.