First off, I want to thank you for your thoughtful and generous reply.
I go through periods where my rational mind comes to the forefront and tells me that I "must be crazy", and yet I have been dealing with the stirrings of somethig else rising to the surface. It's like a life buoy that has been held underneath water via ropes; ropes that have been slashed due to recent current events (coronavirus, etc.) in which the "acceptable " and "rational" minds of our best and brightest have led us into a hellscape.
Having seen the negative results of rationality. I can go from there and trace back to personal experiences I have had that "prove " to me there is the spiritual realm. However, if I am being honest and truly vulnerable to myself and others, that is where I start to get tangled up again as the rational mind tries to grab onto these proofs and reconstruct a stable worldview from there where rationality is prime again.
Regardless of my internal waffling, I do truly find what you have written to be helpful. It points me to what has been rising in me regardless; the need for inward turning and attuning (via practice) rather than endless mental machinations and rationalizations.
To answer your question, I have started to play an instrument in these last three years and I have found what you said to be true. It is interesting too because I just listened to a druid podcast how practicing the work is a lot like becoming a classical musician...
Before trying my hand at music, I studied several years to draw and paint the human form to a fairly competent degree. I was so fascinated by the whole process; art appeared to be such a magic to me. I couldnt understand how the artist made the image in front of them, it seemed to come from nothing! As I studied - and it tokk at least a year before I could claim any competency - I started to understand the internal dialogue that was going on inside the artist and the mental foundations necessary to draw a simple sphere!
Again, I know I will waver in my allegiance towards the unseen however I notice the tilt has always ever been more in that direction and your post certainly helps me as I navigate through this point of the journey.
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timeasmymeasure
Thank You
Date: 2023-04-07 05:50 am (UTC)First off, I want to thank you for your thoughtful and generous reply.
I go through periods where my rational mind comes to the forefront and tells me that I "must be crazy", and yet I have been dealing with the stirrings of somethig else rising to the surface. It's like a life buoy that has been held underneath water via ropes; ropes that have been slashed due to recent current events (coronavirus, etc.) in which the "acceptable " and "rational" minds of our best and brightest have led us into a hellscape.
Having seen the negative results of rationality. I can go from there and trace back to personal experiences I have had that "prove " to me there is the spiritual realm. However, if I am being honest and truly vulnerable to myself and others, that is where I start to get tangled up again as the rational mind tries to grab onto these proofs and reconstruct a stable worldview from there where rationality is prime again.
Regardless of my internal waffling, I do truly find what you have written to be helpful. It points me to what has been rising in me regardless; the need for inward turning and attuning (via practice) rather than endless mental machinations and rationalizations.
To answer your question, I have started to play an instrument in these last three years and I have found what you said to be true. It is interesting too because I just listened to a druid podcast how practicing the work is a lot like becoming a classical musician...
Before trying my hand at music, I studied several years to draw and paint the human form to a fairly competent degree. I was so fascinated by the whole process; art appeared to be such a magic to me. I couldnt understand how the artist made the image in front of them, it seemed to come from nothing! As I studied - and it tokk at least a year before I could claim any competency - I started to understand the internal dialogue that was going on inside the artist and the mental foundations necessary to draw a simple sphere!
Again, I know I will waver in my allegiance towards the unseen however I notice the tilt has always ever been more in that direction and your post certainly helps me as I navigate through this point of the journey.