I'm torn: on the one hand I am utterly unwilling to take it, on the other hand everyone I care about has. So I need it to blow up, because otherwise my life is awful; but if it does, everyone I care about will suffer. I wish I saw a third option, but I don't: either it blows up badly enough to break the spell and everyone I care about suffers, or I will be reduced to the status of unperson. Either way it's awful, and I don't know which form of awfulness I'd rather deal with.
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Date: 2021-10-07 03:57 am (UTC)