Open Post

Fairbanks, Alaska

Hi Everyone,

I am on an Ogham and writing break until January 8. Thanks for understanding as I refresh the well of inspiration and celebrate Alban Arthuan/Yule/Christmas.

I recently bought a new car after my 20 year old Toyota Scion XA became too expensive to maintain. It was a very emotional and heart-rending experience. I was extremely attached to my old car, which I named Carla somewhere along the way. We never had an accident. She did have hail damage, dinged up hubcaps, and a busted mirror. I wrote several songs in Carla, including songs from my Dream of Flight album and Somewhere in Time, which I wrote driving by my local Target. She was more of a pet than a car, though when we started out in 2006, she was just a car. She did not change -- I simply learned that everything is alive over that 20 years and recognized her as a consciousness.  Giving her up feels a great deal like losing a beloved pet. 

Because I don't know all that much magic, I said goodbye to Carla by taking her to the forest preserve and doing the Sphere of Protection in the car -- obviously I could not move around but I did my best. I even burned incense in the confines of the car, windows open of course. I have shed many tears over her and I am deeply grateful for all of our years together. I wish I had the automotive expertise to repair her on my own. I tried hard to conceive of ways to keep her.  Sadly I do not have the time or the space and I feel a great deal of guilt and sorrow over it, with worry that she might be frightened or sad even though "she" is a car. I traded her in for my new car, another small subcompact who I have named Asami. 

May the gods bless Carla forever in whatever future form she takes. 

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