Ogham Readings on Saturdays

[kimberlysteele]

I am happy to read your Ogham free of charge -- that's how I hone my divination skills.  Please limit your reading request to four or fewer Ogham cards: though this can take many forms, here are some common ones (all of them are basically combos of 4 cards):

 

-a single three card reading for the week or month and a one-off, one card reading

-four questions about four separate items that require one answer (card) per item
-a one card reading to answer a specific question and a three card for a more nuanced question
-Two separate readings, two cards a piece exploring the positives and negatives of two different choices

 
I am happy to do Ogham readings confidentially via email -- just email me at k steele studio at gmail during the allotted time/before deadline.  I cannot answer health questions.  If you have a question about health or another sensitive, private matter, provide a bunch of non-identifying information and the Ogham will be able to figure it out even if I don't. I'm serious... the Ogham actually tend to "know" things without me being privy to what is going on.

Please note I take time off during Solstices and Equinoxes for Druid stuff and because sometimes I simply need a break. 

My next planned break is the week of Saturday, September 21.

I take reading requests from whenever this post goes up on Friday night until 8pm US Central Time Saturday.  

For a more in depth look into how I read and interpret the Ogham's symbols, please visit my website druidogham.wordpress.com.

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Your prayers of blessing to the deity/deities of your choice are welcome whether or not you can donate.

Comments

[eyvindmartinsson]

Hi Kimberly, and thanks! How is the upcoming week looking?

[brendhelm]

Kim -

1. Could I have a reading for the month of September?

2. (one-card) Do the Ogham think C is a good idea for me?

[(Anonymous)]

Good morning, Kimberly! Happy long weekend!

What do you Ogham see for me this week?

With many thanks and blessings, Heloise

Princess Cutekitten

[(Anonymous)]

What’s up this week?

Choice of magical paths

[(Anonymous)]

Hey, hope you're doing well today. While I've never commented here before, I've enjoyed your essays/comments here and on JMG's blogs for a long time now, and I'd also like to commend you for the way you stood up to Covid authoritarianism during the height of the virus mania.

Anyway, on to the reading request. At this point I feel I need to choose and commit to a magical path for the long haul, and I've got a few candidates. I know JMG says the most important thing is to just choose one and stick to it, and I will. Before I make the final choice, though, I'd be very interested to hear what your Ogham think of options A, B and C respectively for me.

Thank you for offering these readings.

[lp9]

Hi Kimberly!

Can you ask the Ogham which plan will be the most beneficial for L in the long term? F, NFU, NSA, or DEA?

Thank you!

(NSA and DEA are not that NSA and DEA ;) )

[nebulous_realms]

Greetings, Kimberly. Thanks as always for your readings.

1. What one thing do I need to know to make the best of this week?

2-3. I am currently unemployed and seeking work. Does your Ogham recommend I stick with work in my current field or be open to seeking temporary work of another sort, e.g. farmwork? If the latter, can your Ogham hint at what sort of work I should be looking to - something earthy, or watery, etc.?

4. I continue to seek a suitable partner at this time. Does our Ogham believe a suitable partner can be found in the town in which I currently live, or should I seek more broadly?

choosing a vehicle

[(Anonymous)]

Good morning Kimberly,

The Ogham was right about the vehicle I asked about a couple weeks ago. Due to the Ogham's suggestion that the health of the vehicle was poor I paid for an inspection and found required repairs totalling more than double the asking price. Apparently someone never changed or even added oil to the engine and drove it very hard.

My current vehicle, a Subaru Impreza, has just over 300,000 miles on it. I know some people have taken theirs over 400,000, but I'm starting to get nervous.

This week I would like to ask the Ogham what would be the outcome of purchasing:

A) A Tacoma
B) An Outback
C) An Impreza
D) A Golf

At the moment I'm gainfully employed and there exists a real possibility that I may be able to save enough to buy the vehicle outright, especially if I consider used options.

Thank you,

-MF

Hosea Tanatu

[(Anonymous)]

Hello Kimberly!

I have some air travel coming up in October, that I have booked tickets for. When I read Tarot for the trip, the results were ... discouraging. But I don't know how to tell whether this is a reflection on the itinerary (so I should choose a different day to fly), or on the events I have planned (maybe the visits will be disappointing), or even if it's just a random glitch. Do I need to adjust my plans, or just be prepared for possible disappointments?

Thanks!
Hosea Tanatu

[(Anonymous)]

Hello Kimberly,

What do your Ogham say about what I could be doing better in my mystical work and my work with physical exercise?

Also, an update: I am keeping things professional with that lady at work. Although, when a sensitive work topic arose at one point yesterday, I asked her to close the door, leaving the two of us alone in my room. She stood by the door, and I realized right away what I had done. Fortunately, I was a good distance away from her, so I kept that distance until I asked her to reopen the door a few minutes later, which she immediately did. I hope I didn't scare her or anything.

Anyway... I hope you're doing well.

(I know I only get up to 4 cards. Divvy them up however you see fit.)

Thank you,

Ennobled little day

[kimberlysteele]

Hi EM,

You drew three cards this week.

For the You position, you drew Phagos or Teaching ill-dignified. Arrogance can come in many forms: one of them is "my stupidity is better than your knowledge" and you may have to face off with this sort of encounter. The important part is to root out your own arrogance so it does not find any sympathy in you. Unbalanced pride is another toxic form of arrogance. Sure, you may know a thing, but best to stay humble as you do not know all things. On the opposite side of imbalance is confusion and befuddlement. The best remedy here is to realize you are starting at square one and make peace with it.

For the Situation, you drew Ailm or Transcendence ill-dignified. Wishing something would just be over can be very depressing. We all have crosses to bear and tests to soldier through; we have to make the best of them. Another issue that happens fairly commonly with this card is false transcendence. This is a kind of toxic avoidance of the problem or negative by putting a shiny, happy facade on the lot of it. The best remedy here is to call "Bulls**t!" is to quietly sidestep someone who is being this way. If you're the one doing it, well, taking an honest look in the mirror and facing reality works wonders.

For the Outcome, you drew Beith or Intention well-dignified. You manage to prune out distraction well enough to drive yourself towards what is truly important to your evolution. So much of Meatworld existence (especially modern Meatworld existence!) is noise and not signal. We have to be true to ourselves and though we should put service in our hearts to others guided by the Divine, we have to sort out when to prioritize ourselves above others. This kind of careful sorting takes both knowledge of others and knowledge of the self.

[(Anonymous)]

Good afternoon Kimberly,

To ask: What is it that I need to know this week, according to the Ogham?

[kimberlysteele]

Hi Brendhelm,

You drew three cards for September.

For the You position, you drew Uilleand or Generosity well-dignified. This represents a balanced in-flow and outflow of generosity for you: gifts come in and you give them in return. Of course gifts don't always indicate material plane gifts but also talents and emotional support.

For the Situation, you drew Huath or Obstacles well-dignified. Huath is one of my Ogham's danger cards whether ill- or well-dignified, so I will utter my usual warning about risk aversion for September. Other than that, this shows you rising to challenges with the appropriate amount of force. You're not jumping into fights, but if the fight comes to you, you are prepared and ready to make crucial decisions.

For the Outcome, you drew Mór or Sea ill-dignified. The collective astral around you is in a septic state. Expect bad and dangerous drivers, bad dreams, foul moods that seem to come from nowhere for you and others, and a general psychic pall over everything. This is not anything you caused. It is a form of weather and the only thing you can do is to try to work with it. Lay low, save major decisions until later, and try not to be too hard on yourself or others.

For C, the Ogham like it. They give Eadha or Limits well-dignified, which is to say it is a realistic fit and it should work out.

[kimberlysteele]

Hi Heloise,

You drew three cards this week.

For the You card, you drew Luis or Protection well-dignified. Luis is one of my Ogham's danger cards, so you are advised to be careful this week and to mitigate risk wherever possible. Other than that, in this dignity Luis indicates a meaningful connection with your Higher Self. This can be challenging -- it is not necessarily as rosy as it looks at first glance -- as the Higher Self can be a bit of a taskmaster. That said, this week offers the opportunity for extraordinary insight and growth.

For the Situation, you drew Koad or Confluence well-dignified. There will be one or more "right place, right time" moments this week. Some of the happiness and success of this week is yours and yours alone and other parts of it are sheer good luck. Recognizing what you have put in place and what would be different/worse had you not put it in place will help you recognize credit where credit is due and lay a path for the future.

For the Outcome, you drew Quert or Delight ill-dignified. Overdoing it is a risk this week. Delight is also Celebration, and celebration can easily get out of hand. Eating too much or not getting enough physical exercise can result in etheric exhaustion, but so can the opposite imbalance of overworking yourself or going on a crazy diet. Moderation in all things.

Re: Princess Cutekitten

[kimberlysteele]

Hi PCK,

You drew three cards this week.

For the You position, you drew Ruis or Regret well-dignified. Having been around the block once or twice has its advantages. You see trouble coming a mile off and can quietly vacate the premises. You also know your own tendencies and where others end and you begin. Because of this knowledge, you can extricate yourself from drama. That said, be on the lookout for dramas that would like to suck you in so you can avoid them: plan diligently, know where your papers are, take notes, and keep records.

For the Situation, you drew Quert or Delight ill-dignified. There are two sides to a Quert imbalance and they both usually have to do with etheric starvation. One is that you try to remedy etheric starvation by overindulging. For me, I tend to eat a lot late at night when etheric starvation is worse than usual. The other end is that you might overreact and try to solve it with extreme belt-tightening. Moderation should always be prioritized whenever you are tempted to swing to one of these extremes. Etheric starvation can be directly soothed by exposing the spleen area underneath the heart to direct sunlight.

For the Outcome, you drew Duir or Gifts ill-dignified. It is easy to take simple gifts for granted. Part of this is the (legitimate) worry that they can be taken away at any time. As sad as this is, we have to appreciate gifts for what they are and not be sad about gifts we once had or gifts we shall never have. The only sane way forward is to live in the now and be thankful for it.

Re: Choice of magical paths

[kimberlysteele]

Hi Anon,

Thank you so much for your kind and encouraging words, I'm glad to have you here.

I myself have taken the slow road to Druidry via JMG's Druid Magic Handbook and Druidry Handbook. Mostly this means I do three things every day: the Sphere of Protection banishing ritual, a daily 3 card Ogham reading for my own prognosis, and discursive meditation for anywhere from 5-30 minutes. Seven years after my own first foray, I am finally delving further into the Druid magic rituals as per the aforementioned books.

For Option A, the Ogham do not like it. They provide Coll or Wisdom ill-dignified, meaning that it either won't catch your interest enough in the beginning or that it won't be a sustainable path towards magical knowledge for you.

For Option B, they give Nuin or Communication ill-dignified, which means again they don't like it. Nuin means that this one will feel far off and strange for you, with the gods and powers feeling remote and uninvolved.

For Option C, they like it. They give Mór or Sea Change well-dignified. You are well-outfitted to this system. It suits your personality and there are larger forces at work who would like you to go in this direction.

[kimberlysteele]

Hi LP,

The Ogham only dislike F. The rest are well-dignified.

For F, the Ogham provide Coll or Wisdom ill-dignified. To be blunt, it is not the wisest choice.

For NFU, they give Ailm or Transcendence well-dignified, indicating it helps L to become better and to overcome obstacles.

For NSA, they give Saille well-dignified, meaning it is the most pleasant choice.

For DEA, they give Luis or Protection well-dignified, indicating it is the most challenging but also the most in line with high and noble goals.

[kimberlysteele]

Hi Neb,

For the one thing to know this week, my Ogham give you Huath or Obstacles well-dignified. Huath is one of my Ogham's danger cards, so be on high alert all week and take unusual precautions where safety is concerned. Other than that, this is a card that says "If you challenge yourself to face your weaknesses in all realms, you will overcome a great many of them." This is a great week to begin a daily exercise routine, to tie up loose ends, and to look at old mea culpas with unflinching honesty.

My Ogham say that you should get out of your current field. They give Luis or Protection ill-dignified for staying in, and that means staying in is not a guarantee of being able to make a living because of layoffs, industry changes, etc. For seeking another form of work, they say Yes, and they point to something to do with Earth. They give Ailm or Transcendence well-dignified. Ailm is the first of my Ogham's Earthy signs. Farm work would be a good one to look into. You might also think about contracting and other trades: building, plumbing, heating/cooling, fixing. Think dirty jobs.

For seeking a partner in your current town, they like it. They give you Gort or Perseverance well-dignified, which means there could be a good person looking for a long-term relationship nearby. Getting involved in your town's various doings and hanging out at their establishments on a regular basis would be a logical approach.

Hello!

[(Anonymous)]

Hi Kimberly,

Thank you for these readings.

Could I have a reading for September please?

one card: is an October holiday in S a good idea?


Thanks!
J

Re: choosing a vehicle

[kimberlysteele]

Hi MF,

Thanks for the feedback; I'm glad the Ogham may have helped you to avoid a costly mistake.

My late father drove a Ford Explorer with well over 300K miles on it -- he sold it and supposedly the buyer is still driving it. If you take care of a car with regular oil changes, tire replacement, etc. it can last a seriously long time, especially when it is an older Japanese brand. My own Toyota Scion is 18 years old. I think it will probably last another 18 years at least because I drive it gently and take care of it. The thing that tends to happen with old cars that run forever is the bottom rusts out. I recently had the undercarriage of my Scion coated with a thick black-grey coating that negates rust.

That said, the Ogham give you four opinions on the four cars.

For the Tacoma, they don't like it. They give Oir or Epiphany ill-dignified, meaning there is something either wrong with the car or the brand.

For the Outback, they like it. They give Uilleand or Generosity well-dignified, indicating it is a good deal and will serve you a long time.

For the Impreza, they give Onn or Community well-dignified. This one fits in -- it is not ostentatious but it is also not junk.

For the Golf, they give Nuin or Communication well-dignified. This one is the most modern of the choices and the most convenient as far as its features.

Re: Hosea Tanatu

[kimberlysteele]

Hi HT,

My Ogham say you need not cancel your plans. I asked if there was some kind of disaster imminent and if you should cancel everything and they said No. They gave Gort or Perseverance ill-dignified, which means that you should keep it all in place, itinerary and all.

However, they suggest you keep your expectations on the low side. As for your Tarot's reticence, they give Phagos or Teaching well-dignified, which means your Tarot are on to something. I would expect flight delays (bring snacks, a water bottle, medications, and a pillow) and be ready to improvise at any moment.

[kimberlysteele]

Hi ELD,

Thanks for the feedback.

I designated two cards for your mystical work and two for your exercise routines.

For your mystical work, you drew Ailm or Transcendence and Quert or Delight, both well-dignified. The Ogham like what you are doing to connect with the spiritual and they think you should keep on with it. Ailm indicates that you are truly growing up in the most meaningful sense: petty dramas aren't bugging you as much, and you aren't getting roped into the general crap that everyone else shovels around so freely. They also remark that you are keeping humble and that you are taking a mature approach to this new leg of personal evolution. Quert or Delight means that you are learning to be sensitive to the little things that make you a better friend and romantic partner. You aren't coming off as selfish and obtuse as many men do, and that comes from a genuine place, not so-called "game".

For your physical routines, the Ogham give you Luis or Protection ill-dignified and Coll or Wisdom well-dignified. OK, first thing's first: Luis, especially in this dignity, is one of my Ogham's danger cards, so you need to be much more careful about what kind of exercise or activity you are doing. You could over-exert, sprain, or hurt yourself, so be ready to slow it down. Coll shows that you are willing to put in the daily work and and that it will pay off in dividends.

As far as the love (maybe) interest, it doesn't sound like you scared her. Obviously you don't want to be discussing sensitive subjects within earshot of students, faculty, janitors, etc. That's just common sense. Anyone who is butthurt or scared by it lacks common sense!

[(Anonymous)]

Awesome. 😁 Thank you, Kimberly!!!

Re: Hosea Tanatu

[(Anonymous)]

Thank you, as always!

HT

Re: Choice of magical paths

[(Anonymous)]

You know, this is actually downright uncanny. This reading matches strikingly well with my own experience and intuition with these options. I was inclined towards C anyway, and I appreciate having this as an extra confirmation of my hunch that's the way to go. (Option C being the newly released Heathen Golden Dawn, in case you're curious)

Thanks again, I left a donation as well.

[(Anonymous)]

Good afternoon, Kimberly! Does your Ogham have any advice, warnings, directions, or other feedback for me regarding searching for community?

Thank you for all the readings, Sister Crow

[lp9]

Thank you! This is incredibly helpful.

[(Anonymous)]

Good evening Kimberly,
What does Ogham say I should be aware of this week?

Audrey

"Week 36"

[(Anonymous)]

Hi Kimberly,

1. What do I need to know in order to make the best out of the period from Sept 1 to Sept 7?
2. I have an upcoming "evaluation" soon, and I would like to know if the Ogham think my results will be good news or bad news.

Thanks!
-Eugene

[(Anonymous)]

Hi Kimberly,

Two questions (to total 4 cards) this week:

1. What's up for me and my family this week?

2. Are we on the right path WRT the specific plan I'm thinking of?

Thanks!
-PW

[kimberlysteele]

Hi Anon,

You drew three cards this week.

For the You position, you drew Beith or Intention well-dignified. You have force of will and unity of purpose this week, so it would be a good week to pay attention to what you do that nourishes your soul. What is the wheat that ends up being separated from the chaff?

For the Situation, you drew Nuin or Communication ill-dignified. You or someone in your circle may be maladjusted and not conscious of it -- obsessive rule following, a belief that somehow if everyone just followed the "rules" things would be better, and other forms of autistic literalism are unfortunately NOT confined to those on the autistic spectrum. Also be warned about excessive technology use in the case of loved ones or yourself, or tech misbehaving. Commerce and travel could be painful and inconvenient.

For the Outcome, you drew Mór or Sea well-dignified. The collective astral weather around you is fair and clear. You did not do anything to cause this and so there are no pats on the back in order, however, you can take advantage by starting new and positive habits, phasing out old and bad habits, and grabbing a clear view of the future.

Re: Hello!

[kimberlysteele]

Hi J,

September could be a bit of a doozy: all cards were ill-dignified. That said, an all ill-dignified reading is definitely NOT a bad omen just as an all well-dig reading is decidedly NOT a good omen. It just reveals a propensity towards imbalance and means that you'll need to keep your emotions on a tight leash.

For the You card, you drew Ioho or Grace. Grace in imbalance is clinginess. Don't hold on to what was not meant to be or what was perhaps never meant to be. Contemplate it in solitary meditation and then let it go. It is also possible that you are letting go too soon -- anger and frustration can be Plutonian, which is a fancy way of saying they make you want to go nuclear. Again, solitary meditation is needed to dig out the roots of your anger and irritation. Think before speaking or acting.

For the Situation, you drew Ur or Intimacy. When those closest to us are too wrapped up in themselves to truly listen, it can feel like a prison sentence. The hardest work of all is learning how to see and focus upon the positives, no matter how few and far between they are with the person we are trying to work with. Also, whenever you draw this card, be prepared to keep your mouth shut the majority of the time. There is a tendency to step in it by saying too much.

For the Outcome, you drew Muin or Harvest. There is no miracle or great change coming. You have to make do with what you have with plans on it not changing in any significant way. The only thing you can change is your own reaction to your circumstances. You must always consider all of your options: nobody is truly trapped. This is a strange world and there is plenty of room for you to go off and explore other potentials. This is a good week to look at past actions and results and to mentally explore the nearly endless choices of "What happens if I take THIS path?"

For the holiday in S, they don't like it. They give Tinne or Defense ill-dignified, which means it is dangerous in some way. Maybe it is terribly expensive and sets you back too much, maybe there is a lot of crime, or maybe the mode of travel itself is not safe.

[kimberlysteele]

Hi Sister Crow,

For advice, my Ogham give Straif or Resilience ill-dignified. Finding community nearby will be all but impossible. We live in an atomized time: families purposefully scatter themselves to the four winds and friends are even worse. The second you find someone, they move away and let's face it, connecting by internet is not the same. The Ogham see it as a predicament of our time. You'll have to make do with internet community and hope that the locals start banding together more. You'll have to develop self reliance as your main strategy.

For warnings, they give Oir or Epiphany ill-dignified. Don't fall prey to the Apocalypse meme. The root of the Apocalypse meme tells you all you need to know: the Apocalypse meme is counterproductive and it is escapism. Yes, we are in a collapse. No, it's not going to happen fast enough to truly notice; it's like the frog who slowly gets boiled to death. Even being fairly well prepared for what comes by going full successful gentleman farmer is not going to make Meatworld suck any less.

For directions, they give Ailm or Transcendence well-dignified. This is a card of self-reliance and pioneer spirit. You have to be willing to go it alone. It will be scary. They are indicating you are more of a leader or shaman than average tribeswoman, at any rate. You have to do you, and strongly. Maybe they'll just come to you someday. You shouldn't chase after your community in any sense.

For feedback, they give you Nuin or Communication ill-dignified. The world of strangers (collective astral) is in terrible shape. There is a lot of animosity and fighting. You may want to diminish the role of internet and technology in your life as it isn't necessarily paying off. Certainly that is where I find myself right now and I am trying to put some hard limits on my own social media use, so you are in good company.

[kimberlysteele]

Hi Audrey,

You drew three cards this week.

For the You position, you drew Ioho or Grace well-dignified. This week isn't necessarily easy, but you let go of what has ended or what is no longer meant to be with class. This is a good week to think of what the consequences were when you failed to let go with grace. How is that different than now?

For the Situation, you drew Gort or Perseverance ill-dignified. You or someone close to you may be suffering some psychology of previous investment: not wanting to change or let go because of sunk costs. Yet the only way forward is out. There is also a chance you or someone close to you is not following through on a commitment or a promise.

For the Outcome, you drew Tinne or Defense ill-dignified. Tinne is one of my Ogham's danger cards, so I will utter my usual warning about being risk adverse and not doing anything carelessly. Other than that, this could be talking about you being jumpy and overly defensive... easy, tiger! Calm that Martial energy. It can also talk about the opposite imbalance of not having any mojo, or being stymied by anxiety or inertia.

Re: "Week 36"

[kimberlysteele]

Hi Eugene,

You drew three cards this week.

For the You position, you drew Coll or Wisdom well-dignified. This shows some progress because of hard work on your part. You are gaining through practical experience, which is much different than learning by rote or from a book.

For the Situation, you drew Huath or Obstacles ill-dignified. Huath is one of my Ogham's danger cards, so take special care and be extremely risk adverse this week. I would even go as far as carrying pepper spray. Other than that, it talks about needing to analyze your own anger and to face mea culpas without self-pity. It can mean a lack of Martial energy as well, which means you should be very reticent about committing to outings and projects. It may be best to lay low.

For the Outcome, you drew Phagos or Teaching well-dignified. We are all incarnated as humans to develop our mental sheath. Far from being the smartest species on the planet, we only have fully formed astral and physical bodies. Beings with fully formed mental bodies (not just mental sheaths) don't even need physical bodies and are beyond incarnating in them. Every human has something he or she is very good at, and this is meant to point us in the direction of how to first develop our mental sheath. This is a good week to look at your own best talents and interests and what you can do to develop them.

For the evaluation, it does not look good. The Ogham give Ngetal or Hygiene ill-dignified. This is not a healthy card and it reveals a lack of boundaries.

[kimberlysteele]

Hi PW,

You and the family drew three cards.

For the You position, you drew Uilleand or Generosity well-dignified. There is good opportunity to both receive and give this week. The more you tip the balance towards giving, the more long term blessings you will generate. Notice that the most generous people are often not the most well-moneyed. Generosity often does not have to do with money at all. The most generous people are always the happiest because true generosity is the Midas touch but for the soul.

For the Situation, you drew Eadha or Limits ill-dignified. There is some rebelliousness, anxiety, and struggle this week. Unfortunately there is a lot of pressure, especially from the outside, to HAVE HAVE HAVE. This rears its ugly head. You have to play the long game: don't believe the hype and don't fall for the glamour.

For the Outcome, you drew Luis or Protection well-dignified. Luis is a danger card in my Ogham no matter what the dignity, so I will give my usual warning about being risk adverse. Luis in a good dignity talks about the kind of moderation and moderate attitude that actually does result in a layer of protection. For instance, the rules of a loving parent can be occasionally broken by that parent: you don't always have to be a hard ass. Knowing when to occasionally bend makes you a better person.

For the specific plan, no, the Ogham do not care for it. They give Beith or Intention ill-dignified, which is to say you may mean well but results will not be forthcoming, or that the intention is scattered or being interfered with.

[(Anonymous)]

Thanks!

When I read what the Ogham said about the specific plan, I thought: The plan did involve kind of "trying to have it both ways." Does that fit with "intention is scattered"?

-PW

[kimberlysteele]

Yes, absolutely. I certainly have the same problem with many of my intentions... I want them both ways, and that tends to dilute them.