I've been having my moments over the last couple weeks as well. It's an easy time for me to devolve into nihilism. My lowest moments were when I was physically ill (I caught whatever was going around and now my husband has it) and I tried to make some observations. There were the things I could not change: normally lovely cedar incense smelling like gross Mesquite BBQ, pain on swallowing, ZERO energy, my haggard "look" with crazy hair and red nose, my cat Shadow acting like a Class A brat. My preoccupation was with the going-ons in Shanghai. Depression is a side effect of physical illness (has to do with neurons and chemicals and some area of the brain) so I accepted my depression as part of my illness. As for Shanghai, I made a special meditation on it. I realized why I was so depressed about it: I am worried the US government could try the same thing. During my meditation, I clarified what I would do if the US government tried the same antics with people in white suits terrorizing people, kidnapping their children, and slaughtering their pets. In my case, I will take the reins off my latent serial killer. I will find a way to get a white suit, don myself in it, and go to work until either I have killed them all or I myself am killed. This is not an outcome I want or one that I will seek, however, I will be ready if it comes to that. And the dark truth is that a significant part of me would enjoy destroying white suits in hideous and creative ways. Murder can be an art form. Once I resolved exactly what I would do in several possible scenarios, including the more likely ones, I was able to move on and regain some of my old cheer back.
The Ogham give you three cards.
For the You position, they give you Muin or Harvest well-dignified. "You reap what you sow" say the Ogham, and I think this is their gentle advice to ease up on the external doom and gloom so that you don't become what you behold. They are pointing out the good you've been responsible for in the world and in yourself. Don't take that for granted. Instead, turn the inputs off and build upon what makes you good.
For the Situation, you drew Ruis or Regret ill-dignified. Ares is the god of this card. He's the one who is willing to help us with our regrets if we ask nicely and we are willing to put in the work of figuring out what we did wrong and how we can avoid doing it again. So I'm going to suggest propitiating to Ares and saying "I don't do that anymore" instead of wallowing in self-pity or coming down harshly on someone else (projection of the shadow) or false transcendence where you can't admit you did wrong.
For the Outcome, you drew Eadha or Limits well-dignified. The Ogham are trying to explain that the reason you're feeling this way is because you have a better sense of limits now than you used to. There is an awkward and painful phase when you accept limits. It's temporary but necessary.
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Date: 2022-05-02 01:50 am (UTC)I've been having my moments over the last couple weeks as well. It's an easy time for me to devolve into nihilism. My lowest moments were when I was physically ill (I caught whatever was going around and now my husband has it) and I tried to make some observations. There were the things I could not change: normally lovely cedar incense smelling like gross Mesquite BBQ, pain on swallowing, ZERO energy, my haggard "look" with crazy hair and red nose, my cat Shadow acting like a Class A brat. My preoccupation was with the going-ons in Shanghai. Depression is a side effect of physical illness (has to do with neurons and chemicals and some area of the brain) so I accepted my depression as part of my illness. As for Shanghai, I made a special meditation on it. I realized why I was so depressed about it: I am worried the US government could try the same thing. During my meditation, I clarified what I would do if the US government tried the same antics with people in white suits terrorizing people, kidnapping their children, and slaughtering their pets. In my case, I will take the reins off my latent serial killer. I will find a way to get a white suit, don myself in it, and go to work until either I have killed them all or I myself am killed. This is not an outcome I want or one that I will seek, however, I will be ready if it comes to that. And the dark truth is that a significant part of me would enjoy destroying white suits in hideous and creative ways. Murder can be an art form. Once I resolved exactly what I would do in several possible scenarios, including the more likely ones, I was able to move on and regain some of my old cheer back.
The Ogham give you three cards.
For the You position, they give you Muin or Harvest well-dignified. "You reap what you sow" say the Ogham, and I think this is their gentle advice to ease up on the external doom and gloom so that you don't become what you behold. They are pointing out the good you've been responsible for in the world and in yourself. Don't take that for granted. Instead, turn the inputs off and build upon what makes you good.
For the Situation, you drew Ruis or Regret ill-dignified. Ares is the god of this card. He's the one who is willing to help us with our regrets if we ask nicely and we are willing to put in the work of figuring out what we did wrong and how we can avoid doing it again. So I'm going to suggest propitiating to Ares and saying "I don't do that anymore" instead of wallowing in self-pity or coming down harshly on someone else (projection of the shadow) or false transcendence where you can't admit you did wrong.
For the Outcome, you drew Eadha or Limits well-dignified. The Ogham are trying to explain that the reason you're feeling this way is because you have a better sense of limits now than you used to. There is an awkward and painful phase when you accept limits. It's temporary but necessary.