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Kimberly Steele ([personal profile] kimberlysteele) wrote2020-06-24 09:50 am
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 Dear Friend,

 

There are reasons why I have blocked you out of my life.  Right now, I am facing the consequences of your actions.  Your paranoia about a disease that has been statistically proven to kill fewer people than heart disease per year has nearly destroyed my business that is twenty-four years in the making.  That’s more than half my life.  You, who attained higher degrees at great cost yet have not been able to do what I managed out of determination, originality, and sheer chutzpah now sit back, demanding the eternal shutdown so you and your loved ones can obtain the communist welfare utopia you think you want.  

 

I did my best to keep my irritation at bay, but when your derangement over a legally-elected president exploded into its latest virulent form, I had no choice but to bring down the hammer of judgement.  You are, quite literally, ruining my life right now.  Like many Americans, I was just beginning to see a bit of financial prosperity when you cut the economy’s legs off with shutdowns and then riots.

 

To understand how we got here, I want to go on a journey into your psychology, a thing that you have almost no understanding of despite your general pretenses of being book-smart and expensive psychotherapist addiction.

 

Once upon a time, there was a senator from Vermont who rose to recognition on waves of the middle class economic frustration.  He was axed in a tragicomedy of high-grade corruption so obvious a third grader could have figured out the storyline.  The result of this cheating was the election of a charismatic Caesar, which if you knew anything of history, you would know is a common event during the decline of Empire. If you weren’t so mentally damaged, you might also know this outcome is better for you and the class to which you aspire than the alternative, which is mass bloodshed and beheadings of a fossilized elite a la Robespierre.  

 

You operate exactly like a person under a malign spell.  You still have not gotten over the results of an election nearly four years in the past.  Please let that sink in.  There has been plenty of time to sit back and reflect why your party lost and even more time to cultivate ways to do better by potential voters.  Instead of doing this, you have thrown a multi-year tantrum that began with lumpy pink hats.  The excuse at that time was sexual harassment of girls and women.  Part of the first #metoo phase was to pretend you are a witch and throw bad intentions at the alleged misogynist patriarchy; this summed up the zeitgeist adequately.  Your karmic punishment for these bad intentions is a blubbering, senile pedophile you’ve cruelly thrust into the debate chair.

 

The next phase of manufactured outrage was Russian collusion.  Projecting your own shadow, you cried about espionage and electronic manipulation.  Boy, did you get your rear end handed to you on that one.

 

After that, it was masks.  You’re still in this phase.  The mask is at once a virtue signal and the grown-up’s version of a binky: a sad, dilapidated totem that symbolically shields its wearer from being perceived as politically conservative.  That’s why you want everyone to wear the mask; just like you would like us to believe there are more than twenty people who want to vote for your demented presidential candidate, you want to enforce the appearance of political hegemony among people who have no interest in backing your party.  Holding the entire economy hostage isn’t enough.  Having the entire mainstream media in your pocket isn’t enough.  Since cable viewership is down, you have discovered you cannot force your way into the public consciousness via the television screen and its ads.  Only a person under an evil spell would be horrified by this, and horrified you are.  You would have George Orwell’s 1984 without envisioning the consequences, and because you are deeply afflicted, you have bankrupted yourself intellectually out of lust of result.

 

Like the aforementioned French 18th century elite, you are losing your heads due to an acute lack of self-analysis. 

 

Your final, desperate act is to play the race card.  To do this, you have enlisted an infantry of white, college-educated liberal women and their pathetic, ineffectual male cuckolds.  Behind them, yanking the puppet strings, are viciously racist blacks, Latinos, and Asians, cheering on the disintegration of the working classes as business districts are torched.  Like you, the riots are motivated by a fundamental disconnect from reality.  Large corporations that benefit from times of unrest are unscathed when one or two of their stores are burned to the ground; small businesses are not.  You bleat about systemic cruelty, yet wasn’t it you I saw on Instagram modeling stretch pants or fashionable new Amazon.com outfit/toy?  Wasn’t your new item made via slave labor in the Third World?  You live in a segregated neighborhood, whether it is all white and Asian, all black, or all Latino.  I don’t.  My lower middle class neighborhood is mixed, just like my own racial make-up.  You are voting for the party that put more blacks in jail than any other party, yet this is somehow about police cruelty, not the institutions that control the levers of law enforcement.  Once again, you piss on my leg and tell me it’s raining.  

 

I have blocked you because you are no longer sane.  I hope this is a temporary condition, but I have no problem if it is permanent.  You need me more than I need you.  You need businesses like mine so the economy isn’t completely given over to the large corporations you claim to be taking to task.  You need my mental stability and my willingness to stand against tyrants.  “By their fruits ye shall know them.” You, who say you are brave, manifest the opposite of bravery in every deed and word.  You have thrown me under the bus, and in doing so, you have become the despised tyrant.  You are not the victim.  You are the perpetrator.  This time, it's personal.  Sayonara.  

[personal profile] violetcabra 2020-06-24 05:02 pm (UTC)(link)
Hear hear! I certainly can relate to this, and I'm so sorry to read of the damage done to your business! I've been watching in horror as the left goes further and further off the deep end, into utter psychosis. Perhaps this is simply wishful thinking on my end, but I really think that when the rubble stops bouncing and the smoke clears there may well be a lot more opportunities. Still getting to that point might be a long road.

One thing that gives me some hope is that more and more people seem to be "walking away" and that might lead to some degree of political rebalancing if Trump wins and republicans gain control of congress. Of course, it may not be perfect and may be dreadful, but if it were to pass -- which seems increasingly likely -- at least some semblance of sanity might be regained.

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Excellent

(Anonymous) 2020-06-24 11:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Excellent post Kimberley, I came to your blog via an archdruid

The Fear religion

(Anonymous) 2020-06-25 12:28 am (UTC)(link)
I am visiting from the Archdruid's site.

Respect. Your take on mask wearing throws some clarity into my bewilderment. Generally, I find it an thoughtful rant.

I today witnessed my boomer-age boss who is entirely plugged into the superiority-validating NYT/New Yorker feeding tubes talking to city hall to tell them that from his office window he sees people without masks walking into the local stores and that they have to provide leadership because the governor says...

I felt a queasiness in the gut. a revulsion. A strong desire to leave the place and not look back.

The insistence to mask has not felt right to me. It feels Taliban-like. I think your take on it being an anti-trump act that gives a feeling of reinforced numbers - as if they make non-democrats into Biden-loving Democrats - is part of what I observe. But there is more behind it than that, I perceive. I just can't quite see it clearly.

Can part of it be the perennial tyranny of the old against the young? More despoiling by boomers after a lifetime of practice, in order to indelibly leave behind a scorched earth? A projecting outward, into society, of one's failures? The violent realization of impending mortality by a selfish generation who thought they were special -plus immortal, and if everyone wears masks, they get to avoid fate?

Grrrr. I so am exhausted today of irrational people driven by herd fear.

Anyway. . . again, kudos on the above. I'll peruse your other written sharings.

Cheers from Washington State.





Re: The Fear religion

[personal profile] lincoln_lynx 2020-06-25 04:30 am (UTC)(link)
In times of chaos and disruption people try to re-establish some sense of order and control over their own and other's lives in a futile attempt at again feeling secure.

You nailed it

(Anonymous) 2020-06-25 01:12 am (UTC)(link)
Very well done. I have to second the bit about facebook and social media. They are poison. It is known that facebook and google research and use mind control methods. Hanging out on facebook and social media is to give them your mind for their experiments.

yay!

(Anonymous) 2020-06-25 02:42 am (UTC)(link)
yay! thank you!
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A Method to Transform Anger

[personal profile] joshuarout 2020-06-25 03:56 am (UTC)(link)

Dear Kimberly,

Excellent post! I saw on J.M. Greer's Open Post that you were interested in advice about dealing with anger, so for what it's worth, I thought I'd share the methods I used in successfully overcoming my chronic anger. Franz Bardon's Initiation Into Hermetics starts the student off by constructing what he calls the 'Soul Mirror.' The Soul Mirror is a catalogue of one's positive and negative qualities, traits, or emotions. These traits are then categorized according to the Four Classical Elements as primarily Fire (Hot and Dry), Earth (Cold and Dry), Water (Cold and Wet), or Air (Hot and Wet). One can then see in the Soul Mirror what elemental imbalances one has, and work on achieving an elemental equilibrium. The immediate usefulness of this model comes in the next step, that of transformation. One can now create a strategy based on the elemental nature of the trait - in this case, anger.
Using the Alchemical (or Elemental) Square of Opposition, one can outline the transformation process in the following manner. Let's say the anger's elemental quality is Fire - hot and dry. Its opposite would be positive Water qualities - cold and moist. One can see from the Elemental Square of Opposition, however, that it would be difficult to go directly from Fire to Water - one must go through either the Air traits (hot and moist) or the Earth traits (cold and dry) first, to reach Water.
In my case, I chose to go through positive Air qualities - communication (writing, verbalizing), analysis, understanding, clarity, optimism, joy. Repeatedly writing down the thinking associated with the anger, analyzing it objectively, and uncovering its deepest roots; and also deliberately writing down things to be optimistic and joyful about. Throughout this time, I used Bardon's recommended techniques of 1) affirmations, 2) charging water and food with the desired trait (the food is then consumed and the quality absorbed), and 3) sessions of charging the air with the desired quality (which is then breathed in).
An additional technique I used is the Stoic form of mindfulness - being aware of the 'locus of control': is the cause of this emotion up to me, within my control? Or not up to me, beyond my control? So throughout the day, every day, whenever the anger arose, I recorded in a chart the Time, the Thought, the Emotion, the Action, the Locus of control (is it up to me?), the elemental quality (negative Fire), and the replacement elemental quality I was cultivating (positive Air or, later, positive Water). By monitoring the thoughts associated with the emotion, I was able to notice repeating thought-habits, and whenever they arose, to more easily let go of concerns for things beyond my control.
After successfully shifting the energies of the anger to Air, I then began to cultivate positive Water qualities - forgiveness, compassion, gratitude, etc., using the same methods. By ultimately replacing the negative Fire trait with positive Water traits, I could ensure a more permanent neutralization of the source of the anger. With time, these cultivated traits became permanent habits - just as the anger was a habit.
An additional benefit of working with one's traits and emotions as manifestations of the Elements within oneself is that it fits very well other disciplines that use the Four Elements, such as geomancy, astrology, and many types of magic.
I hope you find this helpful!
Regards,
Josh Rout

Delicious rant!

(Anonymous) 2020-06-25 06:11 am (UTC)(link)
Yet I'm so sorry to hear what has happened to your business and hope the hysteria will pass and you can recover. The resilience of small business is the hope of the future.

It is good that you can get this off your chest. We all have crises and I am very grateful to the people who responded and listened to me when I had mine earlier this year.

I do my best thinking when I get out to nature. Are you able to get out to nature, or are they still blocking that where you are? I think part of the reason the insanity has gone through the roof is that people have been cooped up on an unnatural environment for too long.
Stay safe! I enjoy your comments over on JGM's blog.

Pat

Awfls and illness

(Anonymous) 2020-06-25 01:54 pm (UTC)(link)
Last time I commented I mentioned the anti Trump witches and their workings against him. They are experiencing panic attacks and are homebound.

They are also shrinking their world into a precious few. I escape censure since I discuss squirrels and the squirrel planet and Admiral Nut. They think I am crazy. I am sane.

I do believe that they had hidden mental illness that Trump triggered. After that, the entities that feed off anger and rage went to town. They opened the gate, and in the entities came. Now, for mental hygiene, separation from them is critical.

Meanwhile, the squirrels provide spiritual support for me. I do believe i was one in a part life.

Neptune's Dolphins.

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(Anonymous) 2020-06-25 03:43 pm (UTC)(link)
I doubt this will be allowed to appear, but you need to understand that COVID is dangerous - not because of the sheer number of people it will kill, but because some people are affected in such a way that they require ventilators to survive, and the number of ventilators in hospitals are limited. And there's no way to tell who will be affected severely and who won't until it actually happens. There's an antibiotic called chloramphenicol which is banned for use in humans because - for some people - it causes their bone marrow to shut down. The vast majority aren't affected like this, but for those who are, it's devastating. That's why it's banned. That's why many places are taking precautions against COVID, requiring masks and social distancing - it's because we can't predict who will require intensive care to survive it, and our ability to provide that care is limited.
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[personal profile] causticus 2020-06-25 06:36 pm (UTC)(link)
Great read; thank you so much for sharing your vivid experiences on this. I've also been struggling to keep my anger in check as the situation continues to devolve and become more clownish by the day.

The number of people in my local area I've considered to be friends has dwindled down to a tiny number over the past 5 years. I stopped posting status updates to evil FB about two years ago, as my feed had become a leftist sewage stream; I felt like I was basically now behind enemy lines. Most my friends now are online-only and they're people who also wholly reject anything "woke" or approximate to it.

BTW, I'm a big fan of your Orphic Hymns work (as someone who has been trying to keep a daily practice reciting them) and I appreciate the many insightful comments you leave on JMG's blogs.

(Anonymous) 2020-06-26 01:13 am (UTC)(link)
Kimberly,

Wow, your letter to your detractors is quite articulate. I see that you have a pair of Steele cojones. So anger has its uses too. Else it would not exist. The key is to use it rather than be used by it. There are after all boundaries that must be maintained if we are to consider life livable.

Just so you know, you letter to your "friends" sounds not so much angry as setting limits as to how much crap you will tolerate from them,. Good on ya, is my reply. I'm in no way simpatico with all the commenters who had great advice for you on JMG's blog about how to deal with anger. Not all anger is bad with a double heaping dose of bad sauce on top! Sometimes it is justified. Reread JMG's comment. See the word he put before 'anger'? Yes, you are being the creator and the controller of this emotion. You are expressing what I find to be a healthy 'step back!" to those friends who really have no idea of what it takes to be a friend. (That's a whole other subject but I find your use of the word friend for those who would so easily behave in such a callous manner gives me pause. Rethink what a friend really is. And so you know, I'm all of 73 and can count my true friends on one hand and have enough fingers left over to offend those who cut me off in traffic.

As to your profession and source of income; I have always been of the opinion that there is room at the top of any activity. Doing my best has been my basic approach to all things I have done and it was most effective. Who ever does not like what I do (I was a sculptor during my earning days) can go suck an egg. There are many left who do not let stupid ideas get in the way of their appreciation of beauty. Seek them out. Let the deluded piddle around in circles with no more thought than you would give to washing your hands of a nasty substance.

As a final note, please keep writing. You resonate well with me and I have clicked over to your writings from Greer's a few times to my great delight. I am not a good enough writer to end this comment with a great summary of go get 'em but I will say this: We all have the choice to stand on our feet or grovel on our knees. So far your choice is well worthy of notice.

best wishes,, Michael (aka:Aged Spirit)

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saw your video

(Anonymous) 2020-06-27 12:01 am (UTC)(link)
Hi Kimberly,

I just watched your walkaway video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X6GoaCyxres, and wanted to comment. Congratulations on being a free-thinker; a rare bird these days.

I wanted to add that you needn't worry about global warming, either. There is no "climate weirding." We know that because there have been no increases in extreme weather events. No excess hurricanes, tornadoes, droughts or floods.

See the extreme weather page at Watts Up With That https://wattsupwiththat.com/extreme-weather-page/

Warm days have increased because the climate is still climbing out of the Little Ice Age. Sea level has been rising at a constant rate for as long as we've been able to measure it. No particular increase in that rate, either.

As far as CO2 emissions are concerned, no one knows their effect, if any, on the climate. This, despite all the shouting about a coming heat apocalypse.

I know this because I published the only paper that evaluates the actual predictive reliability of the climate models the IPCC uses to make its heat-death pronoucements.

You can see the paper here, peer-reviewed, open access, and all: https://www.frontiersin.org/articles/10.3389/feart.2019.00223/full

The take-home message is that no one knows what they're talking about, regarding CO2 and the climate. Literally. And that climate modelers are apparently not trained to evaluate the physical reliability of their own models.

The only thing CO2 emissions are known have done is cause a 15% increase in green growth all across Earth. In wild lands and in agricultural yields. Both positive benefits. There's easily enough food for everyone without any increase in land under cultivation.

lastly, good luck. I agree with your take on the corona frenzy, but don't see Trump as a Caesar at all.

Pat Frank

(Anonymous) 2020-06-27 03:02 am (UTC)(link)
Kimberly,
I hope you will leave this up and continue to publish. You are nowhere near alone in your frustrations.
Gawain

Welcome to the home of the politically homeless!

(Anonymous) 2020-06-27 05:00 am (UTC)(link)
My sister in frustration, welcome home. I just found your #walkaway video on YouTube and I know all these feelings.

In times like these it is more important than ever that we know we are not alone even though all the institutions and technology companies would like to see us scattered to the winds. The betrayal of everything I've been told that I was helping to support is the part that hurts the most. In my middle age I no longer recognize anything about the parties or the people I once considered my own.

I truly believe that the ideology is capital "E" Evil. It operates by preying upon people who want to feel like they are doing good in the world and making it a better place, but instead deceives them into a mindset of hate and destruction. The insidious way in which they would select loaded words full of emotional weight and re-define them such that they could steal that weight and bring it down on their chosen enemies was simultaneously ludicrous and frightening. At the time it seemed so transparent and silly that nobody could possibly fall for it, but I fear I gave people's intelligence and fortitude too much credit.

Like yourself, my own family is mixed heritage. My non-USA born family all have fallen prey to the dark cult of intersectionality. Without a hint of irony they sit in their upper middle class homes that they busted their asses off to obtain while simultaneously claiming that they are oppressed by white privilege. They look back at legitimately racist treatment they received growing up, and cannot let go of it long enough to see what's actually happening. What they don't realize is that they themselves, being mainly descendents of actual Spanish colonizers, will be among the first to go when the mob comes looking for blood and gold.

At what point did you begin to recognize the growing sickness in your friends and family? For me, it was approximately 2012 when I began to first encounter these social justice witch hunters, as they began to invade video gaming and create lies and slander amplified by the media. The most ironic part of all this is that prior to this incursion, gamers were by and large on board and sympathetic with liberal causes. There were no enemies there until those enemies were made from the outside. I sense it has been this way in all other infiltrated groups.

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(Anonymous) 2020-06-27 07:06 am (UTC)(link)
This is exactly why I'm cutting a lot of people out of my life right now. Including my family. I don't think there's any hope of reasoning with them. I no longer even feel confident they're human anymore: I think, although I can't prove it, that a lot of people have been commandeered by demons over the past few years.....

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[personal profile] andrew_b 2020-06-28 04:35 pm (UTC)(link)
Hey there Kimberly,

Found my way here through Ecosophia and Magic Monday. Excellent post, and I applaud your courage for putting it up.

It really is fascinating watching the left descend into a demon possessed, cargo cult. They mouth their empty slogans, thinking that chanting them loudly and endlessly will bring about the world they seek. Instead, all they are achieving is alienating everyone around them, driving all away, and creating a toxic atmosphere of anger and division. Folks really are getting done with. I know I am.

I too live in a poorer, working class neighborhood. Completely mixed race, working people, just trying to get by, pay their bills, raise their families, and in general, MINDING THEIR OWN BUSINESS.

I too have distanced myself from my leftist assoications. Outside of my business, I want nothing to do with them. You can definitely feel that storm a comin, should be quite the show!

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[personal profile] andrew_b 2020-06-29 12:45 am (UTC)(link)
**sorry multiple posts went through!!!**

My goodness, a shoutout! Thank you, I'm humbled. I've seen the comparison made to cargo cults on a few places across the internets, and when I first came across it it made perfect sense to me.

And the synchronicities of my first post to you was almost to much. I live in Troy, NY, a beat up little old factory town that had its best days...125? 150 years ago? Anwyays, its a somewhat walkable little city, and I'm actually writing these posts to you while outside my local branch of the library, with my back to young sugar maple (pretty sure its helping with my writing).
I live only 2 blocks away, so I don't bother with internet in my own home, I just come plop out here when I need it. And it turns out, as I was writing my post to you, whadda knoww?!?! A protest march of BLM comes strolling down the street, literally walking right by me, I kid you not. I'd say it was prolly only about 50 strong (I didn't want to look directly at them and even acknowledge them). I lost it and burst out laughing when they started chanting "WE DEMAND JUSTICE". Well, they might get it, but I doubt the they'll like it...what funny times we live in...

Lessons

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A worthwhile read

(Anonymous) 2020-06-30 01:20 am (UTC)(link)
Hi Kim,

I found your site from your walkaway video. You made some remarks about how the party/movement which prides itself on being for "the people" or "the working class" are really a bunch of elitists. I agree 100 % (not that anything is wrong with being in the upper 20%). So I thought you might find this article interesting:

http://esr.ibiblio.org/?p=8526

It gives a brief history of how that happened, but with a more European focus. In a globalized world, it applies just as much here.

The author is a programmer.

Let me know what you think. Thanks.

PS: I was going to email you this, but your contact page doesn't have an email, so I just posted it here.