My Occult Channel on TikTok so far

[kimberlysteele]

TikTok has been a thing for years and I paid it little to no attention. I'm not sure at all why I suddenly decided to put up a TikTok channel calling myself the White Witch of the Prairie (sounds like a Young Adult novel from 1987) with the mission of injecting a dose of sane occultism into the astral grime. I started the channel about two weeks ago, on a Wednesday of course, during the hour of Mercury. I have maintained a schedule of posting one new video a day, and there are many days when I don't feel like posting. I try to interact a little with some TikTok "friends" in order to not be so completely unidirectional as a content producer.

True confessions: I don't like TikTok and I never have liked it because my preferred length for videos is about 12-20 minutes long. The short video format is annoying and far too many vain and insecure people use it as a digital mirror to pout and preen. The pouters and preeners are mostly women, and of course any celebrity worth her weight in crap has a TikTok so she can out-pout and out-preen other celebrities and attempt to steal the thunder from good looking plebes who didn't have to trade sexual favors on a casting couch. The TikTok preening Olympics are not my cup of tea, and despite it having some good content, I have managed to scrupulously avoid it for most of its existence. What Facebook is to Gen X and Millennials, TikTok is to Zoomers. They love it and aside from video games, it is one of the only ways to reach them. So TikTok it was... ugh.

I thought I was doing pretty good getting about 200 views on each new video I posted. My discursive meditation video has over 200 views, the Druid Tree ritual one is nearing 500, and my various videos about the subtle planes have a few hundred views a piece. Imagine my surprise when a video I recently posted about what I believe happens when someone commits suicide hit 8000 views overnight. Though a seasoned TikTok veteran would likely not be impressed, I was taken aback.
Here is the text version of the video I posted:

Traditional occultists believe it is a terrible idea to take your own life because you end up in an astral holding pattern for as many years as it would have taken for you to die a natural death. From my experiences talking with dead people, I strongly believe the holding pattern hypothesis is correct. When people die, their etheric bodies stick around for anywhere from 3 days to several months, and that is why the loved ones of the recently dead so often see their ghosts. The Second Death is the term for when the etheric body dies and the rest of the person, including their soul, goes off to deal with the process of the afterlife. When you take your own life, your etheric body dies on schedule, but the astral body is forced to linger as it has literally left its evolution unfinished and dangling like a cliffhanger in a soap opera.

When I was in my teens, I wanted to end my own life despite having talked to the ghosts of dead kids who actually went through with what I only planned. Back then, I didn’t have enough experience talking with dead people to know about the specific nature of astral holding tanks, but nowadays I gather it is much like being trapped in mundane dreams of the sort where you’re anxious, melancholy, bored, and frustrated. I am REALLY glad I did not end my own life as I am fairly certain I would not have escaped a single one of my problems. From what ghosts tell me, all of your unsolved problems are waiting for you in your next incarnation if you are foolish enough to end it. It doesn’t matter if you spend a good 75 years in astral boredom… all you do is delay the inevitable.

If I could go back in time and talk to my severely depressed 15 year old self, I would tell her to do discursive meditation every day and get to the root of her problems instead of running away and projecting the shadow. I would also tell her to pray to multiple gods and to take regular cold showers or baths. Cold water cleanses the etheric body, which helps one to think clearly.

As I have said in past videos, this era is not an easy one in which to be alive. The collective astral plane is basically the bog of eternal stench right now. There are a lot of people in a certain industry that shall remain nameless who profit from mental illness, and often these people think they are helping because it is the blind leading the blind. Depression is to be expected... That said, if you are feeling as bad as I did at 15, I hope the gods bless you and give you the assistance you need.

There was lots of butthurt over the video. Suicide is a sensitive subject.  I knew I would trigger some people, but I did not expect it to get a great deal of attention.  The video got its share of troll comments, including the usual assortment of atheist-materialists demanding that I provide proof and more than one uncritical thinker trying to thought police me for daring to voice an opinion.  Nevertheless, I was willing to field all sorts of trolling because I remember how I felt when I was suicidal and I feel I could have saved myself a great deal of trouble had I taken the advice from future, middle-aged Kimberly.  I hope there is a TikToker out there (a fellow TikToker, ughhhh) who looks at the suicide option and decides not to employ it.  If that happens, every single video from now until whenever will have been worth the annoyance, irritation, and inconvenience.  

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

Have you had Dylan Mulvaney pop up on your FYP?

[kimberlysteele]

Not at this point, but give it some time.

[andrewskeen]

Respect for venturing into those foul waters; you're a braver bandruí than I...

[kimberlysteele]

LOL, thanks! It's such a weird platform. Not sure if I will ever understand its appeal.

[methylethyl]

I'm told it's essentially a gambling platform. An algo picks videos to go "viral" pretty much at random, so the best way to win is to post as many videos as possible, regardless of content. It's perfect for what it is: the chinese government soliciting info about a rival country ;)

[kimberlysteele]

That makes perfect sense!

[methylethyl]

Aye! The phenomenon puzzled me, too, until someone gave me that explanation. After... like, wow that is evilly brilliant. I have seen some of the demos of CCP face-and-gait-recognition tech. Combine that with hordes of people uploading videos from their phones with GPS tracking info embedded, and you have an absolutely magnificent crowdsourced mass surveillance tool. Kudos to the intel guys who figured that one out.

[(Anonymous)]

It's worse than that. It's a way for CCP to control minds by controlling the content they are exposed to. They use it to assign opinions and divisions to make us tear each other apart. The sheer number of "challenges" that get promoted on that app, which involve doing things that are patently and obviously self-destructive should be all the evidence we need to see it is a weapon of total war designed to kill civilians.

I think it's safe to assume that anything you see on the app, it is because the CCP believes that by you seeing it you will be weakening yourself and your nation, and empowering China.

[kimberlysteele]

I wonder if TikTok will ever be banned? There seems to be constant threats of that.

[(Anonymous)]

Unlikely. There is a current proposed bill supported by the worst of the worst that is *called* in the media a bill to ban TikTok but all it really would do is outlaw using VPNs and make it such that if you say anything on social media the government deems "benefits an aversary" they throw you in prison for 20 years.

Though I do know that the state of Montana *does* have a bill to ban TikTok on Montana soil in plain language without the backdoor criminalization of dissent and VPNs, and not just for government phones but for anyone in the state border on any device, and for any app store making apps available in the state of Montana. It isn't clear to me how this effects web browsers, all of which can just navigate to tiktok . com.

[methylethyl]

Nah. They've purchased all the relevant politicians. They'll talk about it, and then nothing will happen.

[(Anonymous)]

Yes, exactly. In China, TikTok is very different. It's educational and kids can only spend 40 minutes a day on it! What a difference. Imagine, no endless streams of videos of young women showing off their elective double mastectomy scars or young men talking about how taking estrogen is totally authentic and life affirming.

[mr_nobody1967]

I hope this doesn't come off as a stupid question, but is this "astral holding tank" of which you speak located on the lower or middle astral plane, or is it some kind of place in between the etheric and lower astral planes? Or maybe even something else I haven't considered?

[open_space]

Not Kimberly, of course, but if she doesn't mind, for what I know you would dwell in the part of the astral plane you were most attuned during your life and at the moment of death. If it was suicide, it wasn't a pretty part of the astral so I would assume it is wiser to hold into the pain until it subsides that staying there for God know how many decades on end. So I would assume probably somewhere between the lower and middle, probably lower since suicide is also a blind passion, if I dare to call it that.

[open_space]

"any celebrity worth her weight in crap" - that's funny lol

That's quite courageous to put yourself on TikTok and also for not have taken your own life. For the past months my mental health has been through the floor and even though now it is better and improving I did have suicide ideation a few months back and it ain't pretty. I also thought about suicide being a terrible idea from the metaphysical perspective and that and knowing the pain that someone committing actual suicide creates have been the things that stopped my mind whenever it was trying to follow that direction. Sometimes the pain is so hard you just want it to stop! But if you endure it, it does seem like an initiation into something else and also a wake up call into taking things much more calmly despite the fact that hell can break loose, or seem to break loose inside and outside.